Irreplaceable You

61: Hindi Masaya

Jhoana

"Jhoana huli na ang lahat... I'm sorry." Ate Ella

After I hear those words, agad akong tumakbo para hanapin si Nico. Hinanap ko siya kana Ate Mika pero nagpaalam na daw itong aalis.

"It can't be, hindi pwede to!" Jhoana

"Jhoana calm down!" Ate Ells

"Ate Ells I made a mistake! I cannot lose Bea! Pleaseee!" Jhoana

"Jhoana breathe, okay? You're gonna be fine." Ate Ella

"No! Ate Ells! I cannot be fine! Paano kung totoo nga? Paano kung si Nico may kagagawan nito kay Bea? I made a mistake again and now? Patay na si Bea? Hindi ko kaya Ate Ells! Hindi!" Jhoana

I tried running away from them but I'm too weak. Isinakay naman nila ako sa sasakyan para sumama papuntang morgue.

"I want to see Bea, pleaseeee Ate Ly!" Jhoana

"Jho, hey! Calm down okay? The police is still investigating.... They're still checking the body." Ate Ly

"Ate Lyyyy, I hurt her, we broke up, I broke up with her thinking that it is the right thing to do... pero bakit ang sakit? Bakit ang sakit sakit na malaman na iniwan niya ako ng tuluyan..." Jhoana

"Jhoana, it's not your fault okay? Bea respected your decision. And I guess it was a mutual decision between the both of you. Let me handle this okay? You need to rest." Ate Ly

I saw Jia entering the premise.

"Jia, I'm sorry...." Jhoana

But she didn't look at me. I tried holding her hand but she's too angry at me.

"Jia...." Jhoana

"Jhoana not now." Jia

"Jiaaa... I'm sorry hindi ko naman aakalain na.."Jhoana

"Jho naman! All she ever did was loving you. Simula sa Eliazo hanggang maaksidente kayo, hanggang sa namatay siya! At nung nagkaamnesia niya ikaw pa din! At ngayon hanggang sa huling hininga, ikaw pa din?! shit Jhoana naman! Is it that hard to love Beatriz? She's a very kind person, and that one mistake that she did in her life, is loving you! At tinapon mo lang yon! You don't get to say sorry here!
Hindi mo na mababalik yung bangkay niya Jhoana! Wala ka nang babalikan!" Jia

"Jia I'm so.. sorry, hindi ko naman kasi alam na aabot sa ganito. Hindi ko alam na huli na naming pagkikita yon. Hindi ko alam Jia, patawad, hindi ko gustong saktan siya..." Jhoana

"Jhoana pinaniwalaan kita, sabi mo mahal mo si Bea, nagparaya ako! Nagpaubaya ako kasi alam kong sayo sasaya si Bea. Even when things are harder for her dahil sa mga desisyon mo sa buhay, pinipili ka niya Jhoana! Ang tanging hiling lang naman niya ay mahalin mo siya ng buo at hindi tinatago! Hell! I can do that for her! Pero ako ba ang pinili? Ako ba yung mahal? She even asked me to moved to Canada, if things go south with you! Payag ako kasi mahal ko siya Jhoana! She'll throw anything, just to forget you! And she'll do anything to be with you!" Jia

"I'm really sorry. Hindi ko na kasi alam, hindi ko na kasi alam kung saan ako lulugar. Kung kanino ako sasaya. Ang hirap na engaged ka na at paggising mo isang araw makikita ko yung pinakamamahal mo na akala mo patay na eh buhay pa pala. Things were hard for me also Jia! Hindi lang si Bea ang nasasaktan dito." Jhoana

"Then you should have told her from the first place that you don't want to do anything with her! Hindi yung humingi ka pa ng two weeks na makasama siya, anong bullshit yon Jhoana? Ano yon! Wala lang ba yon? Pinaasa mo lang ba siya ganon?" Jia