FREAK

28. SMILE

CHAWARIN POV

a couple months passed, me and ayberk was still on mending stage. we talk to each other but we never really touched intimately. i dont feel comfortable yet since i was really broken at some point. his family tried to be on a conversational level with me but i tend to shy away from them feeling a bit alienated. i know its not them but its all on me. i feel depressed sometimes like im so alone in their world.

the only one who im comfortable talking with is uncle muren. him being a normal human makes me feel a bit at ease. liam was okay but im still weirded out due to his serene appearance. it makes it hard to be rowdy with him unlike uncle muren that despite his age, still kicking up a storm wherever he went.

now that were here in the castle doing the long postponed introduction of the heir to the wolf kind, my bestfriend nat came in and now a bit round in the middle.

my little star, Zain asleep for his nap. hes my light in all of these freaking craziness. i need some normalcy at some point and hes one of them.

"hi, rin. hows the bundle of joy?" nat said as he sat on my sons queen sized bed. ive been sleeping here on his bedroom these past 2 months. no, im not avoiding ayberk. im just still annoyed. i dont hate him, im just still a bit concerned.

"still catching zees im afraid. well surely be late if he doesnt wake up after 15 minutes. if i forcefully wake him, hell kick up a storm all day for sure."

"how about you? still bearing grudges in the family?" sometimes im really surprise at his frankness.

"as far as i know, i hold no grudges against them. i dont know, nat. im still just a bit traumatized, i guess. i admit ayberks been wonderfull being a father to zain this past few months and im so greatful for it. i cant pin point it nat. help me?" i chuckled at him. im a mess, honestly.

"maybe thats what they call post-partum depression. ive heard some went mad with it. your mate surely can cure that. mates stabilized each other, rin. you being apart from him, from his scent, his presence, all these months has been talking a toll on your sanity. sometimes i just caught you staring at nothing or even been in a daze while zains been crying all the while. please just for my own peace of mind. talk to the king."

"im talking to him. what are you talking about?"

"you know what i mean, rin. i dont have to point it out for you. my mates been on my heels all this time and i dont think hell let me out of his reach any further than this. i feel him searching for me already. i need to go to him otherwise people will scramble away from him and thats a no-no since we have a celebration to prepare. anyway, being your beta really is too tiring but mind you, im not complaining. im just worried for you, rin."

"thank you, nat. im happy youre alright. know the pups gender already?"

"not yet. the doctor told us to wait for another 2 months just to be sure. i bet its not just one, though. im too huge for a 3 month old pregnant omega."

"im so happy for you, my jelly." i hugged him so tenderly. as much as i wanted to make him stay, hes beginning to get antsy for some reason.

"ill get going. hes mad already."

"wolf sensor, huh. go ahead." i watched him bow a bit and went out of my sons room.

"were so lucky to have, uncle nat dont you think so, zain?" i caressed his chubby face and i chuckled as he rewarded me with a toothless smile.

AYBERK POV

"hows the tent? is it set-up already?" i asked yi, my beta who as far as i know has been sighing non-stop since 15 minutes ago. weve been holed up here in my office almost the entire day.