I'm scared and alone, which is a very deadly combination especially when you want the pain to stop. I just want it to stop. My stash of razor-blades, bandages, and medicine fluctuate. I always have enough to at least get rid of the pain I had before for a while, but it soon is replaced by a welcoming pain that distracts from the other. The other pain comes back far too soon and I'm left broken, hurt, and still in pain. At least you can smile when you're not happy right?
I'm also incredibly tired. Not just because I keep myself up at night, but I'm talking about being tired of my life. I'm tired of how I cry myself to sleep. I'm tired of it always being my fault. I'm tired of people telling me what's wrong about myself. I'm tired of people hurting me. I'm tired of the yelling and the fighting. I'm tired of pretending like I'm happy when I'm not. I'm tired of my excuses and false explanations. I'm tired of lying. I'm tired of needing help but not getting it, maybe not even wanting it. I'm just so very tired of so many things. Good thing you can go to sleep forever right?
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Suicide, Depression and Self-harm Quotes
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