I sighed enjoying the heat of the water falling around me as I showered getting ready for my last day in New York. It has been a couple of days since I first started talking to the Shadowhunters cast and to celebrate my last day in New York we were all meeting up for a late lunch. Reluctantly I turned off the shower head and stepped out the bath grabbing a fluffy towel to wrap around myself I padded out of the bathroom and into the main room heading over to the bed where I had piled today's outfit. Drying myself off I slipped into my undergarments before pulling an emerald green slouchy jumper over my head to compliment my grey eyes and hopping into a pair of skinny jeans. Once dressed I started towel drying my hair while grabbing my anxiety meds to take quietly cursing when I discovered I'd run out. Well today was going to be fun I could already feel the nervousness bubbling away under my skin.
I exited my hotel room a beanie on my head and hands in my coat pocket trying to retain warmth. I walked down the busy streets of New York to get to my destination a little quaint café, I took my phone out of my pocket double checking the directions that had been sent to the group chat stopping myself from getting lost. I finally arrived at my destination pushing open the door a light jingling sound accompanying my action stepping into the café I scanned the room looking for the group of people I was meant to be meeting. "Hey Remy over here!" I looked in the direction my name was called from to see Kat waving me over to where they were stationed at a large booth I smiled relieved to leave the entrance of the café and go to the back where it was much quieter
"Hey guys" I greeted undoing the buttons of my coat and sliding into the empty space next to Matt ignoring the looks I got from Harry and Alberto
"Hi Rem" Matt greeted pulling me into a side hug allowing me to snuggle up to his side and block out the other people in the café "you alright? You seem a bit edgy" he asks looking down at me
"I ran out of my meds this morning" I responded causing the arm that was still around me to tighten slowly as the rest of the group looked at me in concern
"Remy are you sure you're going to be ok?" Harry asked concern lacing his tone. Harry had been witness to one of my panic attacks before, it wasn't a pretty sight there were lots of tears, hyperventilating, blood and broken rubber bands.
"I'll be fine" I assured him and the rest of the group holding up my wrists that were covered in multi coloured rubber bands-my coping mechanism to show them "I've got my rubber bands" that caused Harry to snort and everyone to look at me weirdly not understanding how a bunch of rubber bands that were generally used to wrap around things such as rolls of paper would help an anxiety ridden adult
"When I get overwhelmed I fiddle and need something to ground me rubber bands do both" I offered in explanation. "Now can we please get back to this lunch before I have to leave you all for Portland" And with that we all went to looking at menus and talking about our time at Comic Con.
"I'm upset that I didn't get to see your panel" I pouted causing them to laugh at me as we discussed their first comic con as a cast
"Maybe next time" Matt said smiling down at me
"OTP, OTP" Alberto and Harry chanted causing me to throw a screwed up napkin at the two of them
"You two are so annoying" I told them
"I've got to agree with the guys though"
"Not you too Kat" I whined
"I'm sorry but we all like this couple pairing you two have going on"
"Not a couple" Matt and I spoke in unison completely contradicting what we had just said about not being a couple
"Sure you're not"
I facepalmed before looking down at my phone, eyes widening at the time "crap I have to get going I have a flight to catch in a bit and I haven't finished packing" I rushed pushing myself up and out of the booth panicking slightly
"Hush Remy you still have time look we'll all help you out just calm down" Matt said getting out of the booth to stand in front of me hands rubbing up and down my arms soothingly while he looked down and into my eyes.
"Ok yeah I can do that" I breathed out nodding my gaze not leaving his, chants of OTP being heard in the background.
"Good" he smiled at me before moving back grabbing his coat getting the rest of the group to follow his actions "come on off we go" he offered me his arm which I linked with mine before leading us out of the café and back to the hotel I was staying at.
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"What's this? Dom commented gesturing to the leather bound book in his hand
"It's a book on myths and folklore" I responded looking back at him from where I was grabbing my shoes to put in my suitcase
"Same old Remy I saw her with similar books all the time when she guest starred on Glee" Harry commented joining in the conversation between me and Dom
"What can I say I love a good myth" I shrugged
"You are such a nerd"
I snorted at that "tell me something I don't know"
"Matt really likes you"
I choked on air both me and Matt whirling around to face Alberto in shock. Coughing and spluttering I looked at Alberto who smiled sheepishly under the burning gaze of Matt
"Nah that can't be true" I laughed nervously fingers pinging rubber bands
"If you say so Remy"
Matt doesn't like me can he?
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A/N hi! Not going to lie this is a pretty weak and lame chapter didn't quite know what to do here. But hey Alberto said what we were all thinking Matthew likes Remy! Oh and since she's going to be back in Portland many of the following chapters are just going to be text message based I know I know oh look copying other writers but they are long distance guys! He's in LA she's in Portland. Anyway even though this was a crappy chapter I hope you enjoyed it enough to vote and comment.
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P.S just so I don't get in trouble or anything here's my disclaimer I don't own anyone or anything apart from Remy and her storyline.
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