Broken

Trapped

I've been so trapped inside of my mind,
I've forgotten what reality feels like.
It seems as if this road gets longer every time I come around another bend.
I rip myself back open every time I think i'm ready to mend.
I'm no longer strong enough to pretend.
But who are you to say it has to end?
It's a slow and dangerous process.
I'll give in when I'm ready to be honest.
For now I'm stuck as a hostage.
I can't conquer my reality if I don't understand the conquest.
I've never been the type to keep it all inside.
But this secret is too powerful so I have to lie.
I don't blame you if you wanna run and hide.
It's not like I gave you anything but time.
But if you give up on me now,
I'm not sure I will survive.
This monster is killing me and keeping me alive at the same time.
Without someone to save me,
I might let it take my life.
I can't go one day without crying.
I promise that this time,
I really am trying.