Broken

Goodbye

I've done all I can do.
I know now that on my own I cannot defeat you.
You pulled me under and held me down.
But I'm not ready to die.
Your tension shows me how badly you want me to drown.
So I'm fighting back this time.
Although I cannot lie,
We both know that I invited you inside.
'Though at the time I never thought you would take over my life.
You didn't even give me a chance to hide.
You fed on my soul like it was yours the entire time.
you never expected me to get up and fight.
I was too weak before but I'm thinking clearly tonight.
I'm gonna cage you up like the demon you are.
I'm gonna take back control and end this war.
It's gonna take time and i'm gonna need help.
But it's worth every painful explanation if I get to escape this hell.
This will be the hardest thing that I will ever do,
But in the end I'll be the one smiling as I rid myself of you.
I can already feel the disappointment and confusion.
I can see the stares from the minds creating their own illusions.
I can hear the desperate questions that no one will be brave enough to ask.
But I also know this may be my only chance.
I'm not ready to leave this world yet.
My mind is one that you won't get.
When I say goodbye this time,
It's goodbye for good.
I'm going to recover
Because you never thought I could.
Fractions of a soul once tortured
Tell me that I'm strong enough
And I don't need to force it.
Blistered words of hateful negativity
Try to change my mind.
Your voice is only loud because I let you win too many times.
As I slaughter these thoughts that you burned in my head,
I'm only crying because I can't believe you're finally dead.
"Goodbye" I'll say.
And truly mean it.
It's time that I let myself win and finally defeat it.