Broken

Deceit

I can hear the secrets being whispered through the walls.
I can feel my heart start to crack a little more, as your mouth begins to make excuses for it all.
I will never understand how it's so easy for you to lie straight to my face.
With no remorse at all,
like you never even felt a thing.
How do we get past this now?
I only have so many bridges to let you burn before we both begin to drown.
I used to believe in us,
Back when I was naive enough to believe in trust.
I knew that this would change it all.
I knew that we'd eventually fall.
Although I never would have guessed that somehow we'd end up like this.
I never even meant to let you all the way in.
Now I'm crying as you're looking right through me.
Standing frozen in the doorway
Pretending you're still human.
You no longer deserve my forgiveness.
And thanks to you I'll never be able to get through this.
No one ever told us that love would turn to hate one day.
My head is getting dizzy from Contemplating how you're still able to look me in my face.
It didn't have to happen this way.
All you had to do was show me that you were willing to make me stay.
You don't get to continuously break my heart and keep calling it a mistake.
This time there's no doubting your intentions.
Don't lie to my face and insult my intelligence.
My heart can only handle so many fractures before it shatters.
Your subconscious ways tell the lies that you never think will matter.
Underneath those empty eyes,
There used to be a human being.
Now you're hiding behind a disguise because you're scared that you might feel your heart is really beating.
I always thought I knew you so well.
Until the moment I realized I was only in denial but no one could tell.
Finally I'm able to look deep enough to see your hell.
I see the fear behind the lies that you can't help but tell.
There's something cold about you now and it's only getting colder.
I don't think we'll ever be the same again,
And It only hurts us more as we get older.
As my tears begin to dry,
My heart becomes the object of every question that you continuously deny.
My fear is finally facing my reality and I'm not prepared to take it.
You had my heart within your reach
But it was easier to break it.
Now that you've destroyed all of the good that I had left inside of me,
My lungs are filling with the pain you left to flood my veins, making sure that I can't breathe.
You caused a riot in my heart so intense, so deep.
Now I'm out of air and I think I'm suffocating.
Emptiness has caused our love to evaporate beneath the seams.
Leaving behind all of the disguises from who we used to be.
It wasn't one big lie that killed us,
It was years of your deceit.