Broken

Truth

I've tried to let go so many times.
I tried to pretend it was all in my mind.
I wanted to believe that I was capable of lying.
But I think we both know that I'm the only one trying.
Selfishness is all you've ever known.
You just strung me along so you wouldn't be alone.
People don't change.
They just get better at hiding.
You still can't see how hard I'm fighting.
I'll never be able to forgive you for everything.
But somehow you still keep me tied on this string.
I've spent so many years coming up with excuses for you.
You could never know the pain that accompanied my youth.
I couldn't face the fact that I was able to hate you.
I've wasted so many days isolating the truth.
You'd think I'd be able to move on by now.
But you don't even know how you affected me, somehow.
You've always been a pathological liar.
You used that talent to set my heart on fire.
After all the times you destroyed my life,
Ripped out my heart without thinking twice.
You were supposed to be the one that I could always trust to keep me safe.
You were supposed to hold me tight and mean it when you tell me that everything will be okay.
Instead, you left me alone and just walked the fuck away!
Now you wanna come back because all of your bridges have finally burned.
I should've laughed in your face the way you deserved.
Unfortunately you still have a way to get in to my head.
You make me want to believe that you want to start over again.
But every time it's always same.
You'll never stop needing me.
To you, it's a game.
This time when I tell you that I'm done trying,
Be prepared for the reality...

I'm not lying.