Broken

Broken words and misguided trust.

They never thought this could happen to us.

Frustration rises as we try to help one another.

Both in denial but lying to each other.

Our difference was that I never had a chance.

That's just how it's suppose to be.

You were suppose to call me stupid.

You were suppose to be mad at me.

I'm looking in your eyes but I don't know the soul behind them.

I keep asking myself Why? like it's gonna help me find him.

You can fool the world forever if you'd like.

But i've already had my heart cut open the first time.

This was your mistake.

Not mine!

So why do I keep paying for these crimes?

I'll never give up on you and you know it, too.

That's why I'm always the first desperate call with shaking hands and short words.

I can never say no to either of you but your empathy still hurts.

My heart is heavy for the pain you must carry, wishing you were stronger.

Although it's getting heavier for the pain you may not ever feel any longer.

You had choices to make and you chose them all wrong.

It's weighing on you now, when it should have been killing you all along.

I can't keep playing the role in your life for someone who couldn't handle it.

It was never my responsibility and I don't know how to channel it.

Tell me that it's all worth something.

Tell me that I'm somehow saving you.

Tell me that you understand how I never had a chance, but you DO!

I was born with tragedy flowing through my veins.

No one gave me any hope so i never thought that i could change.

But you were never supposed to be the same way.

You were gonna be someone big someday.

My heart breaks in so many ways every time I look at your face.

Why did you have to fuck it all up this way??

How could you let the devil decide your fate?

You were better than this mistake.

Now I'm waiting patiently to receive the phone call that was never supposed to say your name.

I never thought you were capable of being dumb enough.

Then again, no one ever thought that this could happen to us.

Yet here we are.

With nothing left but broken words and misguided trust.

I'm terrified to reach the end in the story of us.