Neon Fire {dl}

Chapter 27

Shadows settle on the place, that you left.
Our minds are troubled by the emptiness.
Destroy the middle, it's a waste of time.
From the perfect start to the finish line.

And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs.
Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong.

We are the reckless,
We are the wild youth
Chasing visions of our futures
One day we'll reveal the truth
That one will die before she gets there.

And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone.
We're setting fire to our insides for fun.
Collecting pictures from the flood that wrecked our home,
It was a flood that wrecked this home.

And you caused it,
And you caused it,
And you caused it

Well I've lost it all, I'm just a silhouette,
A lifeless face that you'll soon forget,
My eyes are damp from the words you left,
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.

And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one,
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone.
Setting fire to our insides for fun,
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I'm forever missing her.

And you caused it,
And you caused it,
And you caused it

~Demi

I felt her breathing begin to slow down and deepen as she drifted off into slumber and I craned my head to look up at her. Her long lashes were brushing ever so slightly over her skin and her lips were parted slightly. I couldn't help but pull myself upwards and kiss her softly.

"I love you." I whispered against her lips, her hot breath dancing over my skin. Without opening her eyes she kissed me back just as softly.

"I love you too." She whispered back, her voice sending shivers up my spine as usual. I laid back down with my head on her shoulder as she finally fell asleep. As we lay snuggled under the covers my mind replayed the events of the last week.

I haven't spoken to Lauren since the incident in the car. The desperation in the kiss, the salty taste that lingered on my lips for days afterwards was something that my mind couldn't let me forget. More than once I had woken up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat thinking that Leah was gone and Lauren hated me. I was going crazy. All because of one fucking kiss.

I still had to tell Leah that I was leaving in less than a week. Partly because I didn't want her to freak out and partly because I didn't want to think about what it was going to be like waking up every day without her.

The truth is, I was scared.

I inhaled deeply, the smell of her clothes soothing my swirling thoughts. Her arm was resting on my stomach and I swallowed a lump in my throat as I looked at the thick bandages still covering her forearm. Her hands weren't bandaged any more but they were littered with scratches and needle marks from whatever IV drips they had her on.

I squeezed my eyes shut as a lone tear escaped the corner of my eye. I couldn't cry again. Now was the time to be strong. I must have drifted off because when I opened my eyes again I was alone in the bed. I sat up and glanced around the room confused.

"Leah?" I called out softly. There was no answer but a noise coming from the bathroom caught my attention. I swung my legs out of the bed and padded over to the closed door. I knocked on it softly.