•• in which none of you can sleep and billie misses you ••
warnings : none.. except that it’s very sweet but also a bit long?
•okay so first, billie often finds herself missing you, especially at night
•not because she wanted to have sex.... (well maybe sometimes)
•but just because she misses touching you, feeling you close to her
•it makes her feel safe and she just, needs it
•in those nights, billie sneaks out and drives to your place, hoping that you aren't already sleeping
•also, when she first started to come pick you up in the middle of the night, she wouldn't choose the smallest rocks to throw at your window,causing it to have many minor cracks, which used to make you mad, but now just makes you chuckle
•the sound of billies dodge challenger was now very familiar to you
•you knew that everytime you'd hear the grunt of the engine echoing in the silence of the night, it wouldn't be long before little rocks were thrown at your now quite damaged window
•billie and you had established a code: if billie had thrown 3 rocks already and you weren't coming to the window then that meant you were really asleep
•so everytime billie found herself about to throw the third pebble, she'd hope that you would show up eventually
•because she really didn't want to have to go back home without hugging you at least once
•that night, luckily for Billie, you couldn't sleep either
•way to many things were rambling in your mind, keeping you from being able to enjoy a good night of rest
•even though you could really use it
•summer was coming
•nights were getting hotter
•which meant that you had to sleep with your window open unless you wanted to literally wake up in a puddle of sweat
•billie had noticed this
•so she thought that if she didn't want you to murder her, she'd better not throw any rocks, no matter how small they were
•instead she placed herself under your window and started whispering your name, loudly enough for you to hear
•you smiled at the sound of her raspy, yet sleepy voice as you got up and walked to the source
•only to find her looking up back at you, a strand of hair falling on her forehead
•you'd usually go for the annoying act, just to tease her
•even though in reality you were glad that she too couldn't sleep
"What do you want, Eilish"
•she wouldn't answer
•and instead give you a small smile and a head tilt as a response
"Okay, I get it. Missing me?"
"Yes"
•billie had already placed the ladder right underneath your window and the only thing she was waiting for was for you to come down
•so you did as she expected and made your way over to her
•as soon as both of your feet hit the ground and before you even had a chance to turn around, you felt two arms wrap around you and her face burying itself into the crook of your neck, kissing it sweetly
"I guess you did miss me a lot" you whispered between giggles
"Mmh"
•in moments like this, billie wouldn't say much
•she just wanted to enjoy the feeling of your body against hers
•and the feeling of safety when you were in her arms
•when she loosened her grip, you slowly turned around and cupped her face before leaving a kiss on the tip of her nose, earning her to smile like a kid
•you raised an eyebrow, wondering what she meant
•"the kiss, on the mouth please"
•so, you did as asked and kissed her on the lips for what seemed like an eternity
•when you finally pulled back, out of breath, billie frowned a bit, sad that it was 'already over
"What do you want to do?"
"You really wanna know?"
"Billie."
• "alright," she gave in, taking your hand in hers and leading the both of you to her car
•she started her dodge challenger and you understood that she wanted drive you to a more secluded area, where the both of you could talk and laugh out loud if you wanted to, without fearing to wake up the whole neighborhood or worse, your parents
•during the car ride, she’d let you chose what music you’d want to play
•she’d smile while listening to you hum and sing along quietly
•you’d often find yourself staring at her, thinking of how lucky you were to have her
"I can feel you staring, babe."
"I know."
•who would believe that Billie could blush this much
•finally, she’d stop behind a parking lot and turn to face you
•that’s when you’d talk about anything and everything
•future projects, what was on your mind at the moment, upcoming tests, running away together, your fears, etc.
•then, when one of you would yawn (usually you), Billie would lean in and pull your seat down in order to have better access to the backseats
•usually, she’d lean back against one of the back doors and you’d lay on her, back against her chest
•it wouldn’t be long until you’d grab one of her hands and start playing with the rings on her fingers, still while keeping the conversation going
•sometimes, Billie would get deep without even realizing it
•it’s just that you made her feel so safe and comfortable
•she wasn’t scared to open up to you.
"I’m a better woman because of you, y/n. You changed me and I don’t think I could thank you enough," she softly admitted before pressing a kiss on the back of your head.
"Who said you were a woman yet?" you teased again, earning her to pull back, tilt her head to the side to look at you with a look of desperation and burry her face in your neck.
"Oh god, please don’t ruin this," Billie chuckled against your skin as she circled your body with both arms.
•nights like these were definitely the best.
Goodness that was long. N e ways please request stuff cause I have really bad writers block. And don't forget to vote if you liked it
Word count: 1059
Bye 👋
