I've been feeling numb.
Like as if I took too many pills,
And slipped into a great abyss.
I've been doing drugs.
The hard kind the doctors tell you to miss.
The type that pushes euphoria,
Down your throat.
It's just so I can feel.
Just so I know that,
I have a range of emotions,
That maybe unclear but real.
Been pushing my mind further than,
It can actually handle.
Just running out of time.
Til' I feel too numb,
Then I'm gone again.
Running in an open field,
That opens to a whirlpool,
A black hole of nothingness.
I've been feeling nothing til,
My heart pumps less fluid,
And creates more room for emptiness,
That I no longer want to feel.
YOU ARE READING
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PoetryTired of trying to be everything. Trying to be perfect. Wrong paths and wrong people and missed opportunities. Am I letting my mental illness take over my life? A look into the mind of a BPD, Anxiety ridden woman. With no identity but her Panic. W...
