Perfect people don't exist

Chapter 12

Martin:

I was nervous as fuck for this moment, I mean who wouldn't be. I was relieved when he had let me explain myself. I felt like a dick turning up at his work abruptly like that though. I completely understood, and understand why he isn't just letting me straight back into his life again. I would be the same. I fucked him over pretty bad and sure I thought I had the right intentions but soon, not soon enough, did I realise that my intentions were screwed.

Sure, Ty too has a part in why Carter may be fucked up or something but I can't pin everything on him. Many people used to think Carter's life was your average kid's life. Sure they saw him get bullied but many never thought bad of it. I was that one person, besides Ty, who Carter trusted. The one person he believed wouldn't screw him over.

The guilt will sit with me for the rest of my life. I don't fully understand why I came back here, when he would just be a constant reminder in how I stabbed someone in the back. But I did come back here. For him, and partly for me.

Mainly for him. I came back because I needed to try and put him back together again. When I moved all I could think about was how he would cope. How things might be for him. If they would get better or worse. By the state I saw him in though, I without a shadow of doubt believe things haven't gotten better.

HE is still skinny as fuck and has bruises scattering his face. Ever since Carter was young he had been skinny but progressively over our years that we had of friendship he got skinnier and skinnier. Sometimes I pointed it out, if I realised I hadn't seem him eat but he just always shrugged it off. I don't know if he has seen a doctor, I doubt that too. Probably now isn't the time to be pointing out his flaws, even if I have the best of intentions.

Right now, I need to focus on breaking through to him and earning his trust. Like I said. It didn't matter how long it took, I was determined to succeed!