Fun fact, I used to write songs to help cope with my issues. I stopped song writing when I entered therapy. Today I just found my notebook with one of them and wanted to share them. Just a reminder, you are not alone.
I was extremely rude in these times. I swore a lot but I also had alot of family issues.. luckily things have gotten better with support until I moved to EU, I have to start again now.
I wrote this song about a extremely toxic ex bestie I had, honestly she scarred me a-lot and in the song I left out a lot of details about bullying, body shaming and other stuff.
Times change.
-weird music noises-
Hiding in the closets
Putting my hands in my pockets
Putting all my clothes on
Hearing you talk shit about me
Oh how does time pass by?
Was it all a lie?
Was it all a fake up?
Just like all your make up?
Do you even care for me?
Or did you just use me for my money?
I was told to not judge a cover
You told me you ain't a cover
You seemed as sweet as syrup
Little did I know, you are just bitter as me
I just want to be free
You destroyed me,
You played with me.
You played with me!
Oh.. you seemed so kind,
You seemed so sweet,
You were just another demon in me.
Just another demon in me.
-more ugly ass music-
You told me "times change."
I thought "are you just a phase?"
Stop over thinking,
They are all just jealous.
Little did I know, they were all right
You are just a traitor,
I just changed for the better
You told me I got worse,
But I already knew you were a curse,
I heard you rehearse
All your pretty lies.
I left you on November 16th,
You tried to ruin me on the 15th.
You cant ruin what's already ruined,
It's been all viewed.
January you told me I was disgusting
February you told me I was overreacting
March you told me I was different
I vented to you about my distress
You told my story on Pinterest
You made seem like a monster
You made me see things a little different
Why can't you be happy for me?
Why can't you do it yourself?
Is this about us or yourself?
Seven different diaries,
Six different made up stories
Five different break ups
Four different make ups
Why do I have to say sorry?
You were the one wrong,
Why do you blame me?
You make me feel sorry
For the things I never did.
You played with me..
You played with me!
Oh.. you seemed so kind,
You seemed so sweet,
You were just another demon in me.
Just another demon in me.
Did you just me for my Chinese?
You made me bruise up my knees.
You make me feel sorry,
Is this a new start
Or just another restart?
April you pranked me
May made a fool out of me~
June left me hanging
July embarrassed me
September made me lose my sanity
October I made my own fantasy
November I left you for my sanity
November I changed for the better,
You told me I got worse.
Cant tell me what do anymore,
I want to end my own war.
I changed for the better.
Because you played with me.
Keep in mind I was in fourth grade. I sucked at song writing. Fifth grade I wrote a song about coronavirus and it got published around the school. My ex bestie's face was all worth it when she saw me succeed without her.
Leave your toxic friends, it's never too late.
Also
The best revenge is to live happily without them.
Never forget <3
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