Fragile

8. Secrets

Fox's house looks great, it's a two story apartment that looks pretty pricey. But inside, it still has a cozy vibe tho. The warm colours and candle lighting makes everything seem sweet and smell like heaven.

"Wow." I say and admire his loving room. No one is home right now, except for us of course.

"Do you like it? I think it's a bit too... cute." Fox says and glances down at me.

"I love this. It's so sweet and adorable." I smile and inhale the sweetness of the air.

"That's the problem." He laughs and gets me to laugh too. "Do you want something to eat?"

"Oh, no I ate at school already." I mutter.

"How about a coke, you look a bit... tired?" He asks kindly.

"Do you have Coca Cola Zero?" I ask, hoping that he wouldn't get suspicious.

"I think so. Why? Does it taste better?" Fox wonders and walks me to their kitchen which was almost as amusing as the living room.

"Yeah." I lie, once again. Calories made me lie a lot.

He hands me over a bottle of Coke Zero, almost zero calories. Wonderful.

"Liv?" Fox starts carefully.

I glance up at him suspiciously, that voice couldn't mean anything good for me. "Mmh?"

"When we were in the laboratory and you spilled the acid over yourself..." he starts but gets quiet after a while.

"Yeah...?" I ask, wondering what the problem was.

"Livia, I saw your hands." Fox explains softly and his forest green eyes are now staring directly into my blue ones. He looks warmhearted, probably because he is warmhearted. He isn't judging. Not one bit. Shit, how could I not notice when he pulled my sleeve up...? But that didn't really matter anymore, because he knows.

My eyes start to water so I have to turn away. I don't want to cry but after all these years my tears were aching to be let out. A tear escapes my eye and I quickly wipe it away. I can't let Fox see me like this.

"Liv..." he starts and takes my hand, turning me to face him.

"What?" I try to ask angrily but out comes only a sob.

My sobs start to slowly fill the room until Fox finally pulls me into a gentle hug. I couldn't hold it back anymore. He starts to stroke my hair as I cry into his shoulder. I try to hold it back, but I can't. Everything; my weight problems, self harming, purging today, Leo's comments... everything came out now. I wanted to do nothing but be in Fox's arms for an eternity, never letting go. His gentle voice telling me that it's alright and everything will be okay, calms me down a bit. I wrap my arms around his neck, still full on crying.

I cry for a long time. But Fox stays there, there for me. Even tho I was hurting, more than ever, he calmed me down. Stroked my hair and whispered gentle words. I could never thank him enough for that. Before him I didn't even know how much I just needed someone. Anyone, who would tell me it's going to be alright and hug me.

I finally pull away from him as my sobs start to come to an end. Fox looks at me concerned, his green eyes looking more heavenly than ever.

"I'm okay." I whisper, hoping to make him less concerned.

"You don't have to lie to me." He just whispers and strokes my hair gently. I hate feeling vulnerable, but in his arms I somehow didn't. I just felt cared, loved, seen. He never made me feel vulnerable or unworthy.

"Thank you." I whisper back and give him a slight smile. "Really thank you." I say again, hoping he would see how much I meant it. But I don't think he could ever get it how thankful I was, since there was never enough words to describe it. He didn't know that this was the first time anyone had really seen me cry. No one was there for me before him.