how can i?

15.6K 478 13
                                    

Published 1/23/19

Grace eyes widen in shock.  " Sol,  please tell me you are kidding with me" she demanded covering her eyes with one hand.

"I wish I was" I whispered.

"You can't fell in love with him,  he's already set to be mates with ugh" grace groans grabbing her head eyes closed.

"I need a smoke" grace grumbled.

"Look,  I didn't plan on this happening,  you think I wanted to fall in love?!  I only came to this god forsaken planet to help my tribe!" I argued with grace gripping my knees tightly.

"Sol,  calm down" grace ordered me with Stern eyes. I took a few deep breaths in calming down.

"Sol,  you are going to continue what you are doing with the navi,  but you need to get rid of those feelings, I know it's going to be hard but you have to" grace told me in a calmer voice.

I looked down at the table knowing grace was right.  Tsu'tey could never love or even be with me. 

"Im going to get something to eat then I'm going to go to bed" I said getting up heading out of the room.

At the cafeteria I grabbed an apple before leaving eating it along the way to my room.

I quickly changed as soon as I got to my room.  I was in a pair of spandex shorts and a sports bra.

I layed down on my bed with one of my legs prompt up and my arms crossed behind my head.  How was I going to get rid of theses feeling?  I brought one of my hands out from behind my head and placed it over my heart.

It was beating fast and strong yet it felt like it was skipping beats. I let out a sigh closing my eyes rolling onto my side. 

I had to think of a way to get rid of these feeling and fast.  But how?  My eye brows scrunched together and I rolled onto my other side.

The only way to lose these feeling is to stay away from tsu'tey.  I felt my chest tighten up at the thought but it must be done.

I slowly let my mind calm down from all the stressful thoughts.  Soon sleep took me over and I was out like a light.

I opened my eyes hearing my alarm go off signaling that it was time to get up.

I slowly got up  stretching my arms above my head hearing satisfying pops.  I headed over to my closet grabbing a pair of jeans and a black dry Wick tank top. I tied up my combat boots and headed out the door down twords the lab.

I ignored every one and went right for the birth bed.  I layed down and closed the lid.

Taking a deep breath my eyes closed and I saw the familiar light.

When I opened them again I saw a familiar water fall infront of me.

"Do you have any idea how worried I was"

Avatar: Life of a warrior Where stories live. Discover now