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Pensieve 24: On Irresponsible Parenting

"There's nothing more I despise than them. Men who take out their stress on sex, women, alcohol and drugs. Women who are too weak, too willing, selfish and inconsiderate. Parents who feed other's children when their own are starving. Parents who would rather give their money to other children and themselves rather than spend it on their child's graduation. A woman who does everything to make life too difficult for herself and gives up, confronted by problems her decisions made. Weak people, in short. I despise and hate them though I know I shouldn't. What lunacy is it to feed other people's children when you can't feed your own, then put the responsibility on other people's shoulders, being lax and relying on your kids just because you see they are strong? Can't your parenthood go farther than just bringing up some fetus into the world? I don't want to be a parent. I don't want to be someone so weak. Someone who makes their kids' lives difficult. Someone I  would despise. I don't care if I grow old and die alone. I'll be single, making friends, learning, studying, working to improve others' lives, to help others, until I can't anymore. I don't care how I die as long I live a full life of courage, love, strength, righteousness, Godliness, a life without regrets. I'd rather die on the streets, starving, unrecognized, ill, insane rather than die having lived a life of shame, rather than give up early, rather than be weak instead of strong. Shame on the people who have the guts to "make love" selfishly, without consideration, without thinking, and put the responsibility of raising their kids on others' shoulders. Shame on the people who are content to watch their kids starving while they enjoy all by themselves. God, please forgive me, but I'm angry, so angry I'm shaking inside."