Strawberries and Cigarettes

Chapter Thirty

Christian

Jan. 5

7:00 P.M.

Yoongi; FUCK

Yoongi; HE WAS CUTE AS HELL WITH HIS STUPID FUCKING PINK HAIR, AND THEN I ALMOST CAME UNTOUCHED WHEN HE WAS WALKING AROUND WITH THAT RED HAIR CALLING ME OPPA AND NOW??? HE COMES BACK WHILE I'M TRYING TO PLAY IT COOL AS HIS 'FRIEND' WITH HIS BLONDE HAIR AND HIS BEAUTIFUL CHEEKS AND I WANT TO CRY TANNIE HE OS PRETTY AND HOT AND CUTE AND SHY AND I WANNA HAVE NORMAL VANILLA SEX WITH HIM AND THEN SLOWLY INTRODUCE HIM TO BDSM BUT ALSO NO BECAUSE MY BABY CAN NEVER GET HURT. AND OMG I MADE HIM BLUSH LIKE THAT I'M SO GAY FOR HIM I CAN'T JUST BE HIS FRIEND I WANT TO BE HIS EVERYTHING

Christian; let's calm down now

Yoongi; i think i'm having an anxiety attack?

Yoongi; I can't breathe, do the walls seem closer to you?

Yoongi; JK gave me his number

Yoongi; how do you platonically tell someone that Mulan is your favorite movie because it's the only one you've got to watch with them curled into giggling softly and whispering all their favorite part of the movie to you

Yoongi; "yoongi hyung look! Look at the dragon, his name is mushu!"

Yoongi I LOVE HIM

Christian; lol doubt it

Christian; love is a very strong word, hyung

Christian; know who you are using it on

Christian; a kid who is a year behind you who you will never get to see once you go to college, who is inexperienced, and literally has never even kissed a girl

Christian; not even in spin the bottle because he never played

Christian; why are you so fixated on him

Yoongi; love is a word i have used one four people my entire life and one of them i regret

Yoongi; my mother, father, brother, and seokie

Yoongi; i do not use it lightly

Yoongi; and it's not like i'm moving out of the apartment for school until JK is graduated

Yoongi; i like jimin because he is sweet and caring and secretly sassy, he knows what he wants and he has the secret depth to him that i want to be the one to unravel. I want to see his smile everyday till i die and I want to hear his laugh until i go deaf. He's cute and hot and everything I could want in a boyfriend so when I say i love him I do not plan to ever go back on that word

Yoongi; I want to be his first everything

Christian; sure

Christian; i'm sure he feels the same then

Christian; though he wouldn't be your first anything

Christian; he's probably just too much of a pussy to tell you how he feels anyways

Yoongi; ur doing the thing where you insult him again and it's pissing me off

Yoongi; and FYI? As good as hoseok was to me he was never my first love