Her Deceitful Adonis

Lesson 17

Author's Note: My body is so damn tired but I still managed to write another chapter for you. I just so love you so much guys! Mwuah!

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Avery Rain Santillan

Hindi ko mabilang kung ilang beses akong lumuha ng lumuha ng dahil lang kay Kyron. I was just starting to fall and yet, it's already painful. Napapatanong tuloy ako sa sarili ko kung tama pa bang hayaan ko pa ang sarili kong mas lalong mahulog sa kanya?

Ang isang beses na pagsugod ni Kyron sa mansyon ng dahil kay Amber ay naulit pa ng naulit. And everytime I'm seeing them hugging each other, mas lalong sumasakit ang sampal ng realidad na baka nga... Baka nga mahal na nila ang isa't-isa.

Ayoko silang pangunahan but if that time comes that they are indeed in love with each other, what will I do? Anong mangyayari sa akin kung maging sila Amber at Kyron?

Are you nuts Avery? Do you even have a space in their love story in the first place? Amber's a part of his story. You just have a cameo role. That's it.

And my conscience just slapped me three times again. Kung talagang pisikal lang ang sampal ng realidad, malamang namamaga na ang pisngi ko sa lakas ng mga sampal na iyon. Those slaps were enough to numb my cheeks including my feelings.

"Anak,"

Napalingon ako sa likod ko then I saw my mom. Himalang hindi ko nakitang nakabuntot si daddy sa kanya. Usually kasi magkadikit silang dalawa kapag nandito lang sila sa mansyon.

"Yes mommy?" I asked her as she took the chance to sit beside me here at the lanai.

"Ate, mga anak ko kayo kaya itatanong ko to. I just want an honest answer. Can I have it from you?"

Tumango ako kahit pa hindi ko alam kung ano ang itatanong ni mommy. In the first place, I don't have any intentions of lying to her.

"Good." She tapped my head. "Anong nangyari sa inyo ni Amber?" I held my breathe with that surprise question. Sinubukan kong huwag ipahalata sa kanila na may problema kami but I guess, hindi ako nagtagumpay sa bagay na iyon.

"Mommy, wala pong nangyari sa amin."

"Sa inyo ngang magkapatid malamang wala, pero sa inyo ni Niccolo." I knew it. "Ate alam kong nagkaroon kayo ng relasyon ni Niccolo. Ang itatanong ko lang ate, bakit hindi mo ipinaalam sa amin? Were you afraid? Natakot ka ba na baka pagbawalan ka namin ng daddy mo?"

"No mom."

"Then what? Kasi anak, ayokong husgahan ka. Ayokong bumuo ng konklusyon sa isip ko ng hindi ka tinatanong. I don't want to be unfair."

Kaya ko bang ipagtapat sa kanya ang totoong dahilan? Matatanggap kaya nila ang dahilan ko no matter how immature it seems?

"K-kasi mom-mommy..."

Mommy held my hands comforting me and making me feel that I shouldn't be afraid of telling her things. The comforting warmth of her hand was enough to give me courage to tell her everything.

"I know this sounds immature but I'm jealous of Amber, mommy. Ever since we were young, I felt this jealousy towards her. When you both came into our lives, masaya ako kasi meron na akong maituturing na pamilya. Alam ko na ang pakiramdam ng may buong pamilya. But when daddy started to prioritize Amber, that's when I started hating the fact that she came into our lives. Naiingit ako kay Amber mommy not because dad spoils her with material things but its because dad spoils her with so much love which I felt he never gave me."

"Ate, pantay lang ang pagmamahal sa inyo ni daddy. Walang mas lamang. Lahat kayong mga anak namin, pantay-pantay ang pagmamahal na ibinibigay at ipinaparamdam namin sa inyo. We support you in everything you wanted to do. We correct you and help you stand with every mistakes you commit. We help you to be the best version of yourself without dictating what you should do. We wanted you to learn things on your own without getting lost. Everything we do anak is for all of you."