Forbidden Love at Waterloo Road

Chapter 4: There's a first time for everything

Sorry that this took so long to update, been a little busy with school but I'm off for a week now so I should get write a little more now

Trigger warning: This chapter contains self-harm

It’s been a week now, a week since the party and a week since I went to the cinema with Jack. Monday. Not been to school in that week, I told dad that I was too ill to go so he didn’t make me go. In that time I’d had a lot of time to think, about who I wanted in this situation…Barry or Jack. I pulled on my shirt which was starting to stretch a little over my boobs but I didn’t mind, I’d get a new shirt at the weekend. I tied my tie and pulled on my skirt, making it shorter than normal before I started putting on my make-up and doing my hair. Once I’d finished I knew that I was running late but I didn’t care, I knew the one person I needed to see would still be outside the school. I grabbed my bag and walked out, locking the house up before I went.

When I walked through the school gates I smiled when I saw the PRU students were still doing there morning exercise, I ignored the shouts from Jack, Kevin and Connor and walked right over to the people running back and forth. I walked right through them to where Barry was, he’d stopped when he saw me coming, I dropped my bag to my hand and smiled at him “Hey lil-“ Barry started, but I’d dropped my bag and pushed my lips against his, putting my hands on his neck. He hesitated for a second before putting his hand on my back and kissing me back.  We ignored the shouts from Miss Boston and kept our lips pressed together, I felt him smile against my lips and I couldn’t help but smile as well. We finally broke apart when Miss Boston screamed and we realised that she was right next to us, I smiled up at Barry and he wrapped a hand round my waist “Alrigh’ miss?” Barry said while chewing his gum. “Barry, get back to your running, Kaitlin, get to form” Miss Boston said, I looked at the teacher and turned to Barry, I quickly kissed him one more time before bending down and picking up my bag. I spotted Dynasty so walked over to her “Going from one Barry to the other I see” Dynasty said with a smile when I approached. I laughed and we walked into school together and walked to form. I stopped as we were walking down the corridor when my phone vibrated, I pulled it out and smiled when I saw Barry’s name and picture “Turn around, baby xxx” it read, I smiled and spun round on the spot and there walking towards us was Barry. “Alright, you” Barry said and picked me up, I smiled at him before kissing him again, I ran my fingers through his hair as he put his hand on my bum. I knew that Dynasty had gone into form without me, but I wasn’t bothered really. “I guess this means we’re together then?” Barry said once he’d pulled away, I looked into his eyes and smiled. “I guess it does, yes” I said and quickly kissed him again before he put me down on the floor and I walked into form getting ready for a shouting from Mr Clarkson. “Kaitlin form time is not the time to be kissing your boyfriend” Mr Clarkson said as I walked through the door, Mr Clarkson was sat at his desk, reading his newspaper so I rolled my eyes and went to sit with Dynasty. Looking across the room I saw Jack glaring at me but I ignored him and started to talk to Dynasty, “Right, shut up all of you!” Mr Clarkson shouted, he pulled his chair over to the computer as we all fell silent. After reading the register he finally got down to my name “Kaitlin” he called out, I wasn’t paying attention as I was talking to Dynasty. “Kaitlin!” I heard Mr Clarkson shout and jump round to see him right in my face. “Yes?” I asked, smiling up at my form tutor. “Are you here or not?” He asked, sternly. I kept my smile on my face and kept my eyes on him “Well clearly I am here, sir otherwise I wouldn’t be talking to you, would I?” I said, earning myself a glare from Mr Clarkson “Was there a problem sir?” I added, I looked at Dynasty then back at my teacher. He put his fingers on the bridge of his nose and breathed out deeply “Go and stand outside, Kaitlin” he said, quietly. “What?” I asked, I put my hand behind my ear acting as if I hadn’t heard him. “GO AND STAND OUTSIDE!” Mr Clarkson nearly screamed at me, I was taken aback by his volume but I grabbed my bag and walked out “I needed a jog anyway” I said and walked out the classroom with my bag on my back. I walked down the corridor and up the stairs; I walked up some more stairs and banged the office door open. “What are you doing?!” Sonya screeched at me, I ignored her and walked into my dad’s office “Morning, Kaitlin, what’s wrong and why aren’t you in form?” He asked not even looking up from his work. I sat down on the chair allowing my bag to fall on the floor before I put my head on my dad’s desk and closed my eyes. “What’s up Kaits?” Dad asked, I lifted my head and grabbed my bag before walking out again “Kaitlin?!” My dad shouted after me but I walked out the office and went along the corridor towards the PRU. I walked over to the door and just walked inside, “Can I help you, Kaitlin?” Miss Boston asked, I looked over at Barry then back at the teacher “Erm yeah, Mr Clarkson wants to see Barry” I said and walked out again, I looked through the window and watched Barry grab his bag and walk to the door, even from outside I could hear Miss Boston shouting him back but he walked out the door and grabbed my hand, pulling me down the stairs.

“So where are we going?” Barry asked as we walked down the street hand in hand, “Town” I said simply and dragged him along to the bus stop. “You trying to make me spend money on you?” Barry asked, he sat down on the bus stop seat and pulled me in front of him, wrapping his arms round my back. “Of course, why wouldn’t you buy your girlfriend some presents?” I said with a wink and pressed my lips on his. We stayed together just like that until the bus came, Barry paid for my ticket and we sat down at the back with my legs over his.

“Will ya buy me this?” I asked, we were in Jack Wills and I’d pulled out a zip up jacket that I’d wanted for ages “Course” Barry said, he walked over and picked it up, I couldn’t help but smile as he walked over to the check out. “Shouldn’t you be at school?” I heard someone ask, I spun round and looked down at an old lady, my eyes widened a little trying to think of what to say. “Oh, we have a free period first and if that’s the case then you don’t have to go to form either” I said, I was quite a bad liar but I think I did a  pretty good job as the woman walked away when Barry came over.

When me and Barry finally returned to school it was break time, I said bye to Barry with a quick kiss as he had to go speak to Miss Diamond and I walked over to where Jack, Kevin, Scout, Rhiannon and Jade were standing. “Ahh, the wanderer returns” Kevin said as I walked over, I smiled and everyone turned to me “Oh shut up, Kev” I said and punched him in the arm. I looked at Jack but he just glared at me, I shook my head slightly and turned to Scout “So, how’s Mr Lover Lover?” Scout asked and she winked at me. “Haha” I said, I looked up and noticed that Jack wasn’t there anymore but before I could even think about that I felt a pair of hands pull me back. “Maybe I should tell your dad about your precious Barry!” Jack said, I turned around from my group of friends and glared at Jack. “But you wouldn’t though, would you? You know if you went to tell my dad that I’d hate you and you wouldn’t be able to live with that! You told me that you wouldn’t be able to live if I hated you!” I almost shouted at him. He just stared, “Fine, I won’t go to your dad but you should stay the fuck away from Barry! He isn’t worth it, Kaitlin, he’ll hurt you and you know he will!” He shouted at me, I let my glare harden “IT’S NOT UP TO YOU WHO I GO OUT WITH, I LOVE BARRY AND THAT’S THE END OF IT!” I screamed at Jack and turned to walk away “You don’t even know what love is, he’s only been here a month” Jack muttered but he spoke loud enough for me to hear him, I turned back around and punched him in the face.

Dad was working late that night, once I walked in the door I threw my bag on the floor and started to cry as I walked into the kitchen. I stopped when I saw a note on the kitchen table, Dad and Kaitlin, had to go back to Iraq, it was a last minute thing and I couldn’t handle saying good bye. I’m sorry, remember that I love you and I’ll see you in a few more months when I’m next on leave, Kaitlin? Remember that I love you so fucking much, I’m sorry that I can’t be there for you through all this, you don’t understand how sorry I am about having to leave you again now but I promise I’ll make it up to you! Kai xx I had to re-read it to have it register in my brain, “NO!” I screamed, I scrunched the note up and threw it on the floor before running up the stairs and into the bathroom. I slammed the door and locked it then looked around and started throwing everything on the floor like I had before. I heard a smash and stopped; I looked down and saw a shattered glass on the floor. Kneeling down on the cold floor, I picked up the largest piece of glass carefully surveying it before looking at my arm, I’d heard about people letting out there emotions by doing this, I knew that Rhiannon had done it the term before but that didn’t stop me from placing the sharpest edged against my skin and dragging it across, it was as if I got pleasure out of watching the scarlet liquid seep out of the cut and down my arm.

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