His Smile

CHAPTER 28

Learn to be what you are, and learn to resign with a good grace all that you are not.

Grayson's POV

Dad's clearing of his throat brought me back to reality, the present state. How Ashley and I got to a point where we almost kissed when we were supposed to be playing Twenty Questions shakes me to the core. Dad just left my room, he reprimanded me seriously for our actions. As it stands, he didn't like what he saw and that was the main reason why he was in my room a few seconds ago. And for Ashley, it was obvious she felt embarrassed, and it got worse when Dad didn't say anything after he interrupted us but rather gave us 'the look' before climbing upstairs right after which Dylan arrived to pick her up.

I was entranced once our eyes met, I couldn't tear my eyes away and that's how we ended up close to almost kissing.

I wonder what she thinks of me now. That was going too far on my part, I bet she thinks the worst of me. She probably thinks I was trying to take advantage of her, doesn't she? I would think so of myself too if I were in her stead. Gosh! Gray, what were you thinking? Yeah! What was I thinking at all? It's all so disrespectful, So disrespectful of me.

What to do?

Should I tell Pierson? He could have some wisdom to share with me. No! I don't know, what's he going to think? That I went too far just like I think or? Well, I'm going to have to ask him to know his opinion, what he thinks about this.

I pick up my phone from my back pocket and dial his number.

It went straight to voicemail so I hung up.

What to do?

Send a text?

Definitely!. I quickly send a text message.

Me: Something's happened and I think I messed up.

It doesn't take long for a reply to come through.

Pier: What happened?

Me: I called you not long ago, but it went straight to voicemail. How come you are replying to my message this same instant?

Pier: I was in the shower. Just came out, I took my phone and realized I missed a call from you. I was about to call back when your text came through. What was it you wanted to tell me, I can sense something unusual.

Me: I nearly kissed Ashley.

Pier: Aaaand.....what stopped you?

Me: My dad.

Pier: Woah bro, how did it get to that? It's definitely a call.

And just then he called, I picked up and told him everything. He listened silently as I spoke and when I was done I sighed, waiting for him to say something, anything. He says nothing, instead he just releases a puff of breath.

"Are you still there?" I ask.

"Yeah." He says.

"So?"

"Figure it out yourself man."

"Seriously, man?"

"Better still talk to her about it."

"What am I going to say?"

"I don't know. Think over what you want, you'll know what to say to her then."

I sigh, totally frustrated. "Okay." I reply, "bye!"

"You've got this."

"Mmmm......" I say before hanging up.

What I want? What do I want?

I place my phone on my lampstand before diving into bed, with this question in mind as I drift off to sleep.