I just couldn't, none of this felt real.————————
I picked up my phone as it rang. I watched as Jai's name illuminated the screen. I didn't want to tell him that Tom was here. I knew I should but for some reason I didn't want to. I sighed before answering and raising the phone to my ear.
"Hi, how was the wedding?" he asked softly.
"It was good" I replied low. "How about a vacation?" I blurted out without thinking.
As the thought of joining them crossed my mind, a shiver crept down my spine, a warning of the potential danger it could be. I wanted to go. It would be nice being with them again, but chilling memories would always surround the happy thoughts. I didn't feel like it would be safe for Jai if he came especially with Tom there, but I hoped Tom had changed. By Kirk's words it seemed like Tom had become worse during the last year.
Memories of our twisted history flooded my mind emotions I dared not confront. Just knowing Tom was around stirred up long-buried emotions within me. My stomach felt weird when I was around him. Like something was going to happen. I didn't even feel safe in the house knowing he was there. I didn't want to admit it, I had once loved him, or so I had convinced myself. It was sick and twisted. I knew that's not what love is meant to feel like. Maybe I was delusional back then, so unloved I convinced myself I was being love. I left so suddenly from his grip of manipulation on me but because he was unconscious it didn't feel like a proper goodbye. I guess it wasn't because we were brought together once again. I thought he would be furious with me for leaving him it the state that he was. I did feel slightly guiltily for that, but I always reassured myself he didn't deserve me.
Yet, even now, his presence stirred something within me, a conflicted set of emotions I struggled to comprehend. I fought so hard to forget about him and leave my past behind me. Yet it was all being relapsed in my head. It wasn't fair. I got away and started to love, improved on myself and worked for the career I had always dreamed of. Yet the universe wasn't on myside. I couldn't explain how I felt about this whole situation.
In the kitchen he was so gentle when he helped me which contrasted to the cold and evil man I had once know. He could have been putting an act on just to get inside of my head. But still, he didn't lower his voice at me. I had always feared that our paths would cross again, the chilling thought consumed for months. And now that time had now come to past, I found myself struck with uncertainty for the future. Would he forgive me for leaving him, or would his rage be unleashed upon me in a rush of revenge and ruin this vaction?
"Yes" he said with happiness in his tone.
"Really?" I said feeling stupid.
"Yes where?" he said sounding a little to excited.
"I don't know Bree invited us to her honeymoon, but I guess it's more like a vacation" I said shaking my head.
"Wait when are we leaving?" he asked.
"Tomorrow" I said having no idea.
"I'll check for plane tickets tonight but if not I'll be there early morning" he said with a smile.
"Is everything okay back home?" I asked hopeful.
"Everything is perfect" he sounded sure.
"Okay, well ill text you if I find anything out" I spoke softly.
"Love you" he purred.
"Bye" I said before hanging up.
As I put down the phone I swung my head at sound of footsteps. I watched as Tom dragged his feet along the floor giving a slight glare as he walked closer to the couch. I turned my head back around that same glare I had seen before sending chill down my spine. I heard as he fell onto the couch with a huff. I stayed at the kitchen bench and began to play with my fingers. Feeling emotions flow around my body being unable to explain what im feeling.
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Forgotten Love || Tom Kaulitz
RomanceThis is a continuation of 'Forbidden Love' !! Please go read the first book so everything makes sense. it's on my profile. After having her heart broken and leaving Tom Kaulitz, Ashley made herself a new life. A year has passed and she is now 21 ru...