It's fate - Kagehina Omegaverse

Hinata's thoughts

*Hinata*

Kageyama's with me, hes with me even though I lost...it, he still with me...why?

I'm so fucking useless.

We were gonna have a kid, we could have had a kid. How could he still love me when I lost our baby?
How could anyone love me?

I should have know.

I should have...

I should...

What's there to live for if Kageyama isn't in my life?

What's there to live for if Kageyama hates me?

I love Kageyama, I love him so much I could die, I love him so much.
I love him so much.
I love him.

Eventhough I am so broken hes still with me, hes still holding me in his arms like he always does, like he did before this.
Why didn't I just stay with him?

"He doesn't want YOU, you're just a tight hole for him" He said that, the boy who did this, maybe hes right.
Maybe this is all just a joke to him, maybe this is all a lie, maybe he doesnt love me.

My mind is just playing tricks on me, he said he loves me so I should trust him, why is my mind doing this to me?

I

feel like I'm going crazy.
I feel insane.

When I open my eyes there he is, laying beside me as he stroked my cheek, his eyes looking at me all lovingly and his breathing slow.

There is no doubt in my mind at this moment that he loves me, he really loves me.
Does he forgive me?

Does he blame me?

I don't really care anymore, all I care about this this view, the view of him beside me looking at me with that look in his eyes. Thats damn look is enough to take all my worries away.

"Hey sweetie, you okay?" His voice was beautifully perfect in every way.

I couldn't even speak more than a hum, he smiled a little and kissed my forehead gently, He whispered "Do you want anything to eat or drink?".

I don't want him to go away, I don't want him to leave me, I don't wanna be alone again.

I don't really need a drink because I'm on a saline drip, I shook my head.
"The nurse said I can take you home after you talk to a psychologist" He continued to stroke my cheek.

"You're gonna stay with me till you're better, I made sure your parents are okay with it" He smiled.

The swelling in my eye has gone down enough for me to see through, I could see him in all of his beauty without being blurry.

"I love you" His eyes lit up when I spoke, he looked so happy to hear me speak.

"I love you so much" His happiness turned to concern when I started crying.

"I'm so sorry, please forgive me" My voice broke as I cried and held onto him tightly, not wanting to let go.

"Honey It's okay, it's not your fault theres nothing for me to forgive love it was an accident" He hugged me tightly as I cried, dammit I'm crying again. Why can't I stop crying?

He spoke to me while I cried, he didn't tell me to stop like my parents would've or yell at me he just spoke calmly about when we go home.