Healed By Love

CHAPTER 47

AUDELIA'S POV

The darkness envelops me like a comforting shroud, yet it also reflects the emptiness I feel within. The night sky stretches infinitely above, adorned with countless stars twinkling like distant diamonds.

My gaze remains fixed on the vast expense as I feel like I am an insignificant speck in the grand cosmic canvas. A gentle breeze rustles through my hair, bringing with it a soft scent of solitude. The moon, despite being a solitary companion in this dark void, casts it light around, enhanced by the beautiful stars.

A mix of emotions washes over me, a profound sense of isolation settling deep inside me. Unlike the previous nights I have spent sitting on the floor of my balcony, tonight feels the worse as the loneliness has intensified.

Out of nowhere, a beautiful, shining light tears the night sky swiftly- A shooting star, leaving being a fleeting tail of hope and beauty. Unconsciously, my eyes close as I make a wish, a desperate plea to return things between Lorenzo and I back to how it was.

As I lean my head back against the wall, I feel a lone tear slide down my cheek and I cannot help but laugh at myself. There was once a time where I went through a really rough break up and still did not shed a single tear but now, we had not even broken up but it felt like I was completely broken.

Arrow nudges my hands that rest on my lap, causing me to open my eyes. Removing my hands from my lap, he takes their place, resting his head on my lap, a small whimper leaving him as he looks up at me. I force out a tight lipped smile, caressing his head with one hand and wiping the tear with the other.

Ever since everything went down after the grand revelation of our father's ingenious plan, Lorenzo and I have not seen each other at all, let alone talk. Despite staying in the same house, I have not seen him at all for the past three days. Consequently, my mood has been deteriorating every day.

I never once thought that after my mother, there could be someone, whose presence- lack of thereof- could affect me in such ways. All my emotions have been over the place- Guilt, loneliness, sadness, heartache, anxiety, uncertainty, self-doubt, fear, vulnerabitlity.

The guilt has been eating me from the inside for not reaching out to him the moment he had set foot out of the office that day. I should have followed him and should have talked to him, should have cleared everything right there and get to know his point of view. But, I did not.

Somehow, his presence has been so entangled with mine, that without him around, I don't feel like myself. I feel empty and simply alone. Despite being surrounded by the people I love, I still feel that void. With him gone, the emotional connection is gone, leaving behind it a gap.

The sadness and heartache are like I never felt before due to our emotional fallout. I cannot help but mourn the lost harmony in our unpredicted relationship. I miss training together, late night talks while he would play with my hair, cuddling at night, sneaking into each other's room to spend time together.

In all my life, I have been taught to stand my ground, never let emotions take over me or my thinking but today I cannot help the creeping anxiety. Where does our relationship stand after this and how to approach him?

After my mother, I cannot afford to lose another person- the only person- who is this close to me. As much as I want to resolve this matter, the fear of rejection is holding me back. But, he is Lorenzo and I doubt that he will let something like this ruin what we have.

A glimmer of hope lights up in my chest as I hear the door knob twist before the door to my room is pushed open. My eyes snap to the door behind but the little hope dies as soon as it came. Sensing my mood, Arrow gets up, letting out a warning growl at the person standing in my room.