Brothers (Destiel AU)

Chapter 16

CASTIEL

It happened so quickly. One minute we were just driving down the road going to Walmart then, well, let's just say we didn't make it to Walmart.

The memories flush into my head. I remember looking out the window seeing that my favorite ice-cream shop was going out of business. Although I haven't been there in ages I was still sad that they were leaving. They're putting in a new gym there. I know cause I had asked my mom what would be there. Then I looked forward and there was a tractor trailer coming right at us. He was driving it in the wrong lane. There wasn't enough time to move out of the way. He crashed right into us.

I remember glass shattering and jerking forward, smacking right into the air bag. The last thing I saw was my mom flying out the front window, her airbag didn't activate fast enough, then I blacked out.

I'm awake but I can't move. I'm awake but I can't talk. I'm awake but I can't feel anything.

My mind is the only thing that is awake.

After what feels like hours, I can hear again. There is ringing in my ears but I can hear other things too. I can hear people shouting, although they seem far away, and people walking, also sirens. What had happened? I ask myself, forgetting. Then I remember again.

What if it didn't really happen? And it's just a story that my brain made up? Am I asleep? No. It is too real to be fake-even tho I am not capable of doing anything.

The noise gets washed away by the ringing in my ears. Is it cause I'm dying? Is that what the ringing is? Maybe I'm slowly slipping away from this world. That'd be nice.

Or maybe the ringing is trying to tell me to wake up? I don't know. I don't want to wake up, do I?

Wake up for what? To go back to school and get bullied? To get called a fag?

Then I remember something, something nice. Dean Winchester. The boy who loves me for who I am. The boy I love.

I do want to wake up.
I do.

How do I take over my body? If I can't feel it how will I take control?

Has my spirit already left my body?

The ringing dies down. I can hear again. Someone talking, not shouting like the rest. Although it's quiet and seems far away, I know they must be next to me.

I am still here, in the world. Phew.

I focus on the voice. Try to identify it. Maybe it'll help me find my body?

I decide that it's a male. As I focus his voice seems more clear, but not clear enough to understand what he's saying.

He has a pleasant voice. I imagine what he looks like. I bet he's hot. He's also muscular. And has a beautiful smile. Steve, I'll name him Steve. My imagination is good.

Then I think about another hot boy. One I know, personally. Dean Winchester. Who is he? How do I know him? I forget.

Then I remember Friday night. Ahh yes. The night we had sex. Dean, is my boyfriend, I tell myself.

Why am I forgetting things? Am I dying? Do I want to die? No. Then I am not dying.

The voice left. Where'd he go? I wish he hadn't left, I enjoy his company.

Pain.

I can feel now. I still can't feel my body but I feel pain in my head. Like a very, very, bad headache. I want to scream cause it hurts so bad. But I can't cause I can't talk.

It hurts like hell. I wouldn't even wish it on my worse enemy to feel this. That's how bad it is.

I wish I couldn't feel anything now. Is it cause I'm dying? No. It can't be, it's my body waking up.... right?

It hurts too bad to think about anything other than it.

Then all of a sudden my mind goes blank, the pain is gone, and so are my thoughts.