HER UNDYING LOVE ✔

Chapter 43

***** pic of dawn above ******

ALEXA'S POV:

Its been a week and some days since I gave birth and everything was going smoothly, Philip has been a great assistance to me. Although he has resumed work, he hasn't failed to come visit and play with Dawn.

I was breastfeeding Dawn this evening when my doorbell rang. Ugh... Who could it be? I pulled down my shirt properly to make sure my breasts wasn't hanging out or anything. I opened the door and saw Daniel standing at my doorstep, looking incredibly handsome like always.

I couldn't believe what my eyes was seeing, he looks exactly the same just that he looked a bit thin which made him seem taller or perhaps it was my eyes playing tricks on me. I blinked a few times, not wanting to act like a freak ogling him for too long

"May I come in?" His deep voice caused my body to have goose bumps. I nodded and gave him room to come inside. He stood in my living room awkwardly standing there

"Um...you can sit" I motioned for him to sit on the chair and he did.

The air was awkward as we looked at anything but each other. I felt like I might puke anytime soon until dawn decided to burp loudly, making me giggle and Daniel to smile

"May I hold her?" He asked awkwardly and I smiled, handing Dawn to him. He stared at her for awhile as tears slipped his eyes. "She's beautiful just like you, what's her name?" he finally said

"Thank you and her name is dawn" I smiled warmly at him. I think Dawn immediately felt the connection to her father as she smiled, showing her toothless gum "oh my gosh, that's her first smile" I grinned widely

"Really?" I nodded my head "thank you" he said looking intently at me

"What for?" I asked confused

"For giving me a beautiful daughter like her" so he finally believes that she belongs to him

"You're welcome" I smiled and watched as Dawn reached for his face and held it while Daniel stared at me making me look uncomfortable

"You look beautiful" now that was a lie, I was wearing a sweaty t-shirt stained with baby vomit and leggings, my hair was a mess there's nothing beautiful about such a thing

"Um thanks, you look good too" he smiled and then I got up to take Dawn to her cot so we could talk "so to what do I owe this visit?" I asked after finally putting her to sleep

"I don't even know where to start" he paused "I have been a fool Alexa, I ruined the best thing that ever happened to me, I don't even know how to ask for your forgiveness because, I know I don't deserve it but Alexa, please forgive me. Please give this idiot before you one last chance" his nickname for me melted my heart, no one has called me Alexa apart from him

"Look Daniel, I'm so happy you have come to realize how wrong you were for treating me like a piece of trash. I'm glad you finally accept our baby as your own but, I don't think we can be together anymore" I stated staring at my hands

"No Alexa, I was a dick for treating you badly but please don't punish me this way. This past months, almost a year we have been apart has been the worst moments of my life. Please don't do this to me" by now he was kneeling beside me, weeping like a baby. I got up instantly

"I'm sorry, but I..I can't. This isn't about love anymore Daniel, no doubt I still love you and will always love you but the fact is that you didn't trust me, you belittled me, you made me feel dirty. You don't know how much you have hurt me" he got up and stood beside me

"That's what I'm saying, give me a chance to rectify my mistakes, I promise you I'll do whatever it takes to make you and our baby happy, I promise" I looked at him as tears were gushing out of his eyes, his face red from crying. I reached for his face and he leaned into my touch, I wiped away his tears

"I think it's better we co- parent, I won't stop you from coming to see dawn anytime you want to but, the idea of you and I getting back together, I'm sorry but it won't work" I stepped away from him going to open the door for him "please Daniel, just leave. I can't do this right now" he walked up to me looking defeated

"I...I'm truly sorry Alexa, even though I don't deserve your forgiveness, I hope consider it, even if it's a little bit, please" his close proximity makes me want to go closer to him and wipe his sadness away but I couldn't.

Immediately Daniel left, I slid down my door and wept, after so many months, he finally came back. Why am I crying now? Wasn't i the one who asked him to leave? Why do I feel as if my whole world just left me.

I heard a knock on the door, why doesn't he understand that I don't want to be with him anymore which is a big lie by the way but still. I got up, ready to give him an ear full

"What?" I yelled immediately I opened the door only to see a shocked Philip staring back at me

"Alexandra, a..are you alright? Did I do something wrong?" He asked innocently, looking worried

"Of course not Phil, I thought you were someone else" he held his heart, breathing out of relief. He stepped into the house properly

"Here, I got this for you" he handed me a bag full of hamburger, ice cream, chocolate and chips, I immediately jump into his arms and hugged him

"Thank you so much, I really need this to lift my mood" we went to sit in the living

"So who made you so pissed off like that?" My smile immediately fell

"It was Daniel" I whispered

"You mean Daniel your ex husband" I didn't want him to feel bad by correcting him that Daniel was still my husband so I just nodded "what did he want?"

"He wants to get back together" he opened his mouth but no words came out. He stood up and came to sit beside me holding my hand in his

"So, what did you say?" He asked softly

"I told him that I couldn't. Please Phil, can we change the topic? I don't want to talk about it any longer"

"Ok, how's my princess doing?" He asked, getting up to go check on dawn in her room

"She's fine" I answered, my mind far from what he was saying

I asked him to change the topic but I couldn't get Daniel off my mind. He was like a tumor that was on planted in my brain. God help me