Ana
December 30
2:50 pm
"I swear I'm never getting married again so Dre better act right cause I'm only doing this one time" I ranted while getting out of my momma's car, following her to her front door
She shook her head while unlocking the door and we went inside
"Ana you are being so dramatic"
"Ma. Did you not see that dress on me?"
"I did and I think you looked beautiful"
"Well I felt like somebody put Hercules in a extra small"
She stopped in her tracks to look at me so I shrugged
"Okay I'm being a little dramatic... but I can still tell I picked up a little weight. It's tighter on me than it was the last time I tried it on"
"Well all we gotta do is let them add room to the dress if you feel like it's too tight"
I followed her into the kitchen "no. All of these alterations ain't cheap. Ima just chill out on all the eating junk food and actually commit to going to the gym until this wedding" I told her while going through her fridge
"I don't think you look bad. I actually think your weight looks good on you"
"Well I just wanna feel good too. I mean I did until I went to try on my dress again"
My eyes examined the inside of the fridge, thinking
"And all of those pregnancy dreams I used to have of Dre cheating with that big ass whale... maybe he wasn't cheating. I was just the whale"
"Okay now you pushin it" my momma laughed "you honestly look good Analise. Stop beating yourself down"
"I'm not Ana anymore, just call me Pearl"
"I'm not"
"Well I'll take Free Willy then"
"Girl" she cracked up and I couldn't help but laugh too
"Seriously though momma. Do I look bad?"
"No. And you know I won't lie to you. But it's really about how YOU feel. Do you think you look bad?"
"I don't but I just that just threw me off guard thinking I was just going to make sure I was still good with my dress and come to find out it got a little tighter. I just don't wanna end up looking stuffed like a pig in a blanket on one of the most important days of my life cause I'm only doing this once"
"You won't. I know you're gonna look beautiful and so does everybody else"
"Pigs in a blanket are beautiful... stuffed peppers are beautiful.... Stuffed pasta shells are beautiful ma. I know ima look beautiful. I just don't wanna look stuffed"
I closed the fridge and leaned against the counter "I'm just gonna start eating better and try to at least make two or three trips to the gym a week and if I don't make it, I can just come up with some kind of workout at home. But ima try to get to the gym so I can get a little break from them kids"
