I Get To Love You [ShumDario]

3| Go After Him Before You Loose Him

After a week of being in Dubai, Matthew flew back home and was greeted by his castmates three days later onset.

"Matthew Quincy Daddario!" Matt winced at the sound of Kat's voice as she and the rest of his castmates aside from Harry made their way towards him and he took a deep breath before he turned on his heel and smiled at his friends who all narrowed their eyes at him

"Why didn't you tell us you were going to Dubai?" Dom asked with a raised brow as he crossed his arms over his chest while the girls and Alberto had their hands on their hips waiting patiently for Matt's reply

"Well?" Emeraude asked the ever impatient one of the group and Matt sighed

"I just needed to get away for a bit. It was an impromptu trip that I wasn't even thinking of taking until I was already boarding the plane" he replied giving them a shy smile making his friends shake their heads

"You and your impromptu trips," Alberto said making Matt give them a sheepish grin, "come on, let go get ready before Joshua comes knocking on our door to hurry us up"

They all made their way to their dressing rooms to get into their Shadowhunters costumes as they were going to be filming the final episode of the show.

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"AND THAT'S A WRAP!" The director yelled as the final scene was shot and everyone cheered and clapped although there were tears as this was it. They had currently just finished filming the first half of season three before going on break before they were due to return to film the last episodes of the season.

"Can't believe we're halfway done with the season?" Kat said as they all walked down the hall towards the exit after they had all changed back to their regular clothes

"It's so strange" Alberto added

"You could say that again," both Harry and Matthew said in unison making their friends exchange glances with smiles but the two actors pretended that it didn't happen and continued to walk towards the exit leaving their friends behind.

"Those two are so fucking adorable like why can't they just admit they love each other and get together already?" Alberto asked

"They're only hurting themselves by pushing their feelings away," Emeraude said as the three of them looked after Harry and Matt

"I tried to get Matt to admit his feelings for Harry but it was a bust. He thinks and I quote 'even if I do have feelings for him he'll hate me' that man is a stubborn guy when he wants to be I'll admit" Kat agreed before adding, "come on let's catch up to the two and go out for drinks to celebrate"

The six friends soon found themselves at their shared apartment downing shot after shot and without even thinking, they decided to play a game of truth and dare. Kat, Dom, Em, and Alberto were determined to get Harry and Matthew to come out and just admit their feelings for each other but what they didn't think would happen was for Matt actually admitting his feelings for Harry.

"Now it's Mattie's turn," Kat said as she looked at the tall and handsome male across from her

"I told you not to call me that," Matt said and she only grinned making him roll his eyes, "alright ask away"

"Truth or dare?" Kat asked with a smirk and he once again rolled his eyes before sighing and he knew he'd regret his next answer but he wasn't really thinking rationally at the moment with all the alcohol running through his veins

"Truth"

The other four exchanged grins with each other while Kat smiled wide leaving Harry and Matt to look at her with suspicion

"Do you currently have a crush on anyone?"

"Yes," Matt answered making everyone raise their brows at his answer,

"Oooh tell us," Alberto said as he got up to grab everyone another bottle of beer and handing them to everyone all gauging Harry's reaction to Matt's reply. He looked across the circle and to Kat's left where Harry sat and everyone watched waiting for him to continue.

"It's him," Matt said looking at Harry, "I don't know when and how but I just fell for him. It's stupid, isn't it? Do you find me repulsive? Should it be wrong to be in love with another man? I told Kat that I didn't have feelings for him but I lied. I lied because I didn't want him to hate me. I didn't want to lose my best friend because of these stupid feelings" everyone sat in silence as Harry looked away from Matt's tear-filled eyes.

"I'm in love with you. It sounds stupid and selfish, but you take the things that you expect to happen when people talk about love and it's always you. There are people in my life who I love, but no one affects me the way that you do. You make me feel whole. You make me feel safe. You make me believe that I can do anything and make me want to be the best possible person I can be." Matt said looking at Harry without breaking contact with him, ignoring the looks from their friends, "Your faith in me makes me feel like nothing can stop me and your interest makes me feel important and loved. My dreams seem small and inconsequential, but you make them seem like the most important dreams in the world. I'm amazed by your vigor and curiosity for life. When you want to do something unique and uplifting, you inspire me to do the same. You see the world differently than others and it's contagious"

"I tell myself we're just friends. I tell myself I know how lucky I am to have a friend like you. Early on I realized friendships should be nurtured and cherished. It's your friends who stand by you, deal with your slightly odd behavior and overly energetic outbursts. The ones who pick you up and make you feel like a single part of an important larger piece. But what happens when friendship stop being enough? There are times when you look at your friend and realize they've been much more all along. So what do you do? Do you keep the friendship, knowing that for the rest of your life you'll always wonder what if and what would have happened? Or do you tell the person how you feel, knowing that it could unravel the foundation and cause you to break whatever bond existed?" Matt was now standing in the middle of their living room with tears streaming down his face as Harry looked away from him not a word coming from him as Matt poured his heart out. Kat and Emeraude were huddled together on one sofa whole Alberto and Dom sat on another watching the pair in suspense waiting with bated breaths to hear what Harry had to say.

"Did I know all of this the first time I met you? I'm not sure when this started to happen, but it has and I think it's important you understand. I know there is a chance that you don't feel the same way and this will be the last time I speak with you. But I've weighed the consequences, and while I will miss having you as a friend, it's too painful to be your friend and keep these feelings knowing that every time I see you the feelings get worse. Seeing you affects how I see others." The girls had tears running down their faces at Matt's confession while the guys tried to console them as best as they can but it was hard for them to see their friend pour his heart out only for the man he loves to just sit there saying nothing or doing nothing

"The other day I was thinking to myself, "I wish I didn't feel this way; I wish I was normal". But then I thought about it and instead imagined what it would be like if you also felt this way and thanked God for giving me these feelings. I know what love is supposed to be. And even if I can't have this type of love with you, I know it exists and it makes me understand the purpose of this thing we call life. I don't know what to expect, but you need to know that I love you. I am in love with you. I can only hope you feel the same way." Matt finished his confession before he realized what he had just done and ran out of the apartment ignoring his friends' calls for him to return.

"Why are you sitting there like a fucking statute instead of going after him?" Dom asked looking at Harry who was sitting still not having moved an inch since Matt began confessing his feelings for him.

"Why should I?" Harry asked

"Because if you don't, you'll lose him forever and I know that it will kill you both not having each other in your lives. So go after him before you lose him, Harry"