Let Yourself Fall (Liam Payne)

Chapter 31 ~ Darcy

Chapter 31 ~ Darcy

Liam is doing great. Lizzie is really happy. Everyone is so nice to me, all the girls, the lads and even the fans. I’ve only run into nice fans and they are always lovely. My mum comes today and I couldn’t be happier. I’m so happy with my live, with all the friends I’ve made, all the new things I’ve tried, and all the things I want to do. I’m happy with Liam like I never thought I would be and despite all the things I believed that having a boyfriend would cause, nothing like that happened. I haven’t neglected Lizzie, she’s even happier that I have someone and I believe that it has nothing to do with the fact he is Liam Payne. She is just happy for me. Liam has a busy schedule, but we manage to work perfectly, plus, when he is busy that gives me time to spend with my little sister so I don’t feel like I’m losing something. I’m not giving up on anything.

Things are so great I can’t even believe it. I’ve learnt so many new things that I enjoy; I’ve done so many things just because I want to do them. I’ve learnt so much about myself. Things I didn’t know I could love.

Now I know I love watching movies with Liam whilst he plays with my hair and gives me soft kisses at random moments. I know I love the sandwiches he prepares. I know I love running with Brit. I know I hate heights and I’m not an adrenaline junkie. I know that I get scared in the London Eye but everything is fine as long as I have Liam next to me. I know I love going shopping with Eleanor, Perrie and Lizzie. I know I love playing hide and seek with all the lads. I know I love watching Liam backstage and encourage him when he has to perform. I know that I want to go to Uni now, that I feel it’s the time. I know I want to make my own living, be independent.

And all these things I’ve learnt are thanks to Liam. He showed me all this. He taught me to live for me. And I was completely wrong, you don’t have to forget about yourself to take care of others. You can have a life and still be responsible for others. I see that with Liam all the time, how he looks after the lads and he is so responsible but he still has fun, she still has his life and he can be even a bit irresponsible with his own health. Though he has learnt too, he’s more careful and it’s seems like he’s finally come to terms with his condition.

I’ve made a lot of research about kidney failure, just to be more helpful and I learnt that you can have a pretty normal life, it’s not as threatening as I thought first. He just has to be more careful and everything will be fine. For now, just to help him to get used to all this, I’m following his same diet. It’s not easy the few first days, but I manage. Plus, it’s really good for my own health too. When I told Liam about that he didn’t agree on this idea. He didn’t want me to go through this when it wasn’t necessary, but I insisted. It’s not the big deal for me, but even if he doesn’t say anything, it means a lot to him. He doesn’t feel lonely. Lizzie tried to follow the same diet as well.

It didn’t work.

But she tried and that’s the important thing; plus, we got a good laugh at her when she gave the first bite.

Today Mum gets home and things will change even more. Now I’ll have the chance to prepare to go to Uni, to finally study journalism as I’ve dreamt my whole life. Lizzie will have her mum with her every day, she’ll have a normal infancy, I’ll have more opportunities to live my life and we’ll be all together.

I’m just so happy!

“Your smile is so big!” Lizzie comments whilst we’re waiting for mum to cross the doors of the airport.

“Oh, it’s because I’m really happy. Things are going to be even better for us now, Lizzie,” I answer and she smiles back at me, her eyes shining with the same hope I feel bubbling in my chest.