Let Yourself Fall (Liam Payne)

Chapter 7~ Darcy

Chapter 7 ~ Darcy 

“Harry is so nice! And Louis makes me laugh all the time. I like Niall’s laugh more than in the videos and Zayn is crazy too! But the best is Brit! She is the bestest ever!” Lizzie keeps talking and talking about how wonderful One Direction was and how much she enjoyed this afternoon with them.

I smile and nod, sometimes I make a few comments so she knows I’m listening. She’s incredibly happy and that’s all I can ask for, I’ve made all this just because of her. It was very embarrassing for me, due to all the things that dropped out of her mouth, but I’ll survive. It’s not a big deal, after all. Just some proofs of how awkward I am. Carter is always telling me that I should go out more, accept all those dates I’m asked on, but I just can’t find the purpose on that. In my list of priorities, dating is very low. There are better things to care about, like my little sister’s life. She only has me when Mum is not around and it’s my choice to look after her instead of having someone else to do that.

However, what mortifies me from that episode in Liam’s place is what he may think of me now. Probably he thinks I’m lame and boring, which is no surprise, but I don’t like the idea of him thinking that of me. I know I shouldn’t care about his opinion, and most certainly I should not care about his opinion regarding that subject, but I do, even if I don’t want to accept it.

I can’t deny all the things I felt when Liam and I were alone in his kitchen. The way my heart was beating faster and I felt a lump in my belly; but at the same time I must ignore those reactions because they might end up hurting my little sister. And I can’t afford to do that, even if it is unintentional.

“And what about Liam?” I ask her and I slap myself mentally. I just can’t stop being so aware of his existence and I don’t think that’s a good thing.

Lizzie squeals and bounces in her seat. “He’s just as I imaged, Darcy! And he was so nice with you, too! Isn’t he incredible?” She asks and I feel my heart skipping a beat.

“I think he is,” I reply honestly with my eyes on the road. I don’t know him much, but I feel he’s a great guy.

“Yay! That’s why he’s my favourite but I love them all!” She tells me and I chuckle lightly. I never believed she could love One Direction more, but I’ve been proved wrong. It’s obvious she loves them even more now that she knows them. “I can’t wait to see them again,” she adds and my heart does this silly thing again.

The thought that I’m going to see them again makes the lump in my stomach grow tighter, and just thinking of seeing Liam again makes me feel all tingly inside. I’ve never felt like this before and even though it’s new, I’m not an idiot. I’ve read many books and watched countless movies. The diagnosis: I have a crush on Liam. But crushes have solutions, right? I can perfectly ignore all my feelings and pretend that nothing of this is really happening; but something tells me that it won’t be easy if I keep seeing him. How can I avoid him when Lizzie loves to see him and the other boys? How can I stop my heart from fluttering every time I think of him?

Suddenly, avoiding this doesn’t seem that easy.

“Are you going to tell your friends about this?” I ask her to keep my mind safe from any Liam related thought. Not an easy task, I can tell you.

“Of course no!” She says and I take a little glimpse of her. She has sat straight in her seat and looks determined. “They would never understand. They would ask me to give them things and to introduce them. I don’t wanna be like other fans, and if I want them to keep liking me, I have to be a good girl and not annoy them. Right? Plus, I don’t like much my classmates, you know that,” she tells and I nod.