I can't do this anymore

Chapter 5 - be back in an hour

Caremñ's pov:

'And last but not least this is the pitch' Niamh said as we stood in front of a big Astro. The rest of the team were training and playing a mini game. We stood and watched for a sec while I was looking at their way of playing. I was sure I could do it.
'Okay so that is all is there anything else you wanted to see?' Niamh interrupted my thoughts. They had nice centre, not as good as Barça but still good.
'No thanks I'm all good thank you' I replied.
'Cool we can take you back to the house now. Do you have your own car or are you coming with us?'Jessie asked with her strange accent. I liked it though. It was cute.
'Yeah I do have my own car but also I have Alexia and Mapi with me is that okay? They will only be here for 3 days but I just wanted to make sure' I asked worried they would say no.
'Oh my god Alexia Putellas wants to stay in my house! Of course they can!' Niamh replied and she clapped her hands in happiness.
'Okay good' I laughed a bit and Niamh's reaction.

I got into my car and took a deep breath. It feels wrong wearing a different badge. I remember signing for  Barça and everything felt right

Flashback
I got home from school. I had just finished my last GCSE.
/'Lex I'm home let's go!'/ I shouted up the stairs.
/'okay okay I'm coming gosh go and get in the car'/ she chucked me the car keys as she put her shoes on. I hadn't Evan changed out of the clothes I sat the test in.
We got in the car with me bouncing around with excitement.

/'Okay you are officially a member of Barcelona Femeni' / coach said as I signed on the dotted line.

It was the best day of my life. Barça was my home. I was pulled out of my thoughts by Lex
'bien hecho mi hijab' she said as she pulled me into a hug. ( well done my daughter)
'Estoy orgullosa de ti' Mapi said squeezing my hand as she did. (I'm proud of you)

We sat like that for a moment when a car came up next to us.

Niamh was in the drivers seat with Jessie in the passenger seat. She rolled down the window while I did the same shivering at the cold.
'Dios, hace mucho frío' Mapi complained from the back. (God it's really cold)
'callarse la boca' Lex turned around and hit her leg lightly. (Shut up)

Niamh looked confused but brushed it off.
'Okay just follow us and we will take you to the flat' she said to me.
'Yep okay' I said back and we both rolled our windows up.

We had been following for about 15 mins when Niamh's car came to a stop outside a car park. The gates lifted for us as we drove through into a car park.

I parked beside them and we all got out.
'This car park is for residents only so we will get your number plate registered soon.' Niamh said to me as she and Jessie helped to unload the suit cases from my boot.
'Cool thank you guys' I said smiling at them. They had done lots for me and I was just a stranger.
'Of course Carmeñ we just want to make you feel at home here' Jessie said meeting my eyes. I liked the way she said my name. It sounded strange in her Canadian accent.

We got in a lift to the top floor where the flat was. It was around 7 pm when we got in and it was slowly getting dork out. The flat was big and clean. It was very pretty and I was pleased.
'no es tan bonito como el anterior' Mapi mumbled from behind me. (It's not as nice as your old one)
'Shush no seas grosera' I said lightly hitting her arm. (Shush don't be rude)

They showed us to my room. It was big and comfy.
'Thank you, you really didn't have to' I said turning onto them as Lex and Mapi fell onto the bed tired.
'Honestly it's no problem' Niamh said as she smiled at me. 'By the way we are gonna to put on some pasta for dinner is that okay?'
'Yep it's perfect thank you do you want any help?' I asked and she shook her head.
'No it's okay. I'll come and get you when it's done' and with that she left and closed the door.

'Ven, mi amor' Lex said to me.(come here my love). I walked over to her and Mapi and wrapped my arms around them. We sat on my bed talking and laughing just enjoying the time we had left together.

Around half and hour later there was a knock at my door.
'Come in' I yelled.
Jessie walked in her cheeks turning pink as she did so.
'Foods ready' she said not making eye contact.
'Okay come on Maps, Lex' I pulled them up off the bed as Jessie walked back to the kitchen.
'Nosotras vamos a comer en el café en el Camino' Mapi said looking at me.(we are going to go and eat in the cafe down the road)
'porque creemos que deberías conocer a tus nuevos compañeros de equipo. No te preocupes, estaremos de vuelta en una hora' Lex said as she kissed my forehead as she started to walk out of my room pulling my with her. (because we think you should get to know your new teammates. dont worry we will be back in an hour.)
I walked them to the door.
'Ok te amo esté segura' I said to Lex and Mapi and shit the door behind them.(okay love you be safe)

I walked into the kitchen and saw Jessie and Niamh dishing up pasta. I loved pasta. It was my favourite food ever.
'Hey Carmeñ!' Niamh said as I sat down next to her with Jessie on the other side of the island.
'Hey Mapi and Lex went out so that we could get to know each other better' I said as I blew on my food.
'Yeah we should ask each other questions or something' Niamh said excitedly as me and Jessie both nodded.

'So how can you speak English so well' Jessie asked me. We had been chatting for half an hour now and they both seemed like really sweet people. It was nice getting to know them as people rather thank just players.
'Well I did English at school and I can also speak a few others' I answered and shrugged my shoulders.
'That is so cool what other languages can you speak?' Niamh butted in
' well obviously Spanish and English but also Dutch'
'That's cool but why Dutch?' Jessie asked.
'Well do you know who Jill Roord is?' I asked
'Yeah' she said
'Well she dated my older brother for like 5 years and I became close with her and most of their national team. I picked some up along the way but I wanted to learn it properly so I did.' I said honestly. It was no secret that me and Jill were close. She was family.
'Is she still with your brother?' Jessie asked.
'No my brother died 2 1/2 years ago and me and Jill went through it together. She is like my older sister' I never normally talked about him and I could feel tears threatening to spill. Jessie got up and walked over. She stood in front of me and hugged me. I buried my head into her shoulder while I felt her thumb draw circles on my back. I felt at peace as I listened to her heartbeat. She made me feel safe.

My phone rang on the side and i saw Lex's contact on the screen. I pulled away from Jessie smiling at her softly. I answered.
'Carmeñ, hola mi amore' she said slightly slurring her words(hello my love)
'Dios mio' I laughed. (Gosh) 'Que borracha estas' I said still laughing at her. (How drunk are you)
' Que quieres decir no estoy borracha' she said still slurring. (What do you mean I'm not drunk)
'seguro lo que tu digas' I said back not believing her. (Sure whatever you say)
'sush estamos de vuelta ahora ven y déjanos entrar' she said and with that she hung up. (Shush we are back now come and let us in)

'They are back now and I have to warn you they are a bit drunk so I think we will just go to bed now thank you both so much though' I said to them as they walked with me to the door.
'Of corse it's what we are here for. Yep and we are gonna go too. Tomorrow we are going to meet the rest of the team at around 1 okay?' Niamh said. 'Anyway I'm going to bed now good night you to' she walked off.

I open the door to Lex and Mapi struggling to stand up. Me and Jessie helped them to my room.
'Right I'm off. It was nice to get to know you and ill see you tomorrow good night' she said quickly hugging me.
'Yeah you to see you tomorrow thank you again' I called after her as she walked off.
Now I had to deal with these 2 children in front of me.

Jessie's pov:

I couldn't believe that the Carmeñ Le Tissiè was living with me. The girl was a legend on the pitch. I had a good feeling about this season. But as we were getting to know her, you can practically see the walls she builds up around herself. It pains me to see and you can tell she has been through so much. I knew she wasn't here just to play  football. She loved Barcelona. You could tell by the light in the eyes every time she spoke about the place. And the way she made me feel. Her accent was gorgeous and she was just flawless. But she had just got here and I wanted to find out more about her. In her eyes you can see all the pain and hurt she had been through and the best I could do was be there for her if she needed it.
I fell into sleep with a cirtan Spaniard on my mind.

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5 done again what is everyone thinking. Again I know it's confusing but it will all come together. Thank you xx