Military Girlfriend

Chapter 29

Chapter 29: Jay's P.O.V

My thoughts swirled around my head, giving me a headache. The little kid who currently sat kicking my chair behind me on this cramped plane was not helping it either. I boarded not too long ago with my army duffle bag in one hand, it felt heavier this time. Like if I didn't get enough hold on it, it would end up weighing me down and I'd fall head first onto the airport tile. I think it's because I knew she was suppose to be here, I even waited till the last call to board the plane in hopes she would show up. Who was I kidding though? I flipped her world upside down in a matter of seconds. How could I be such an ass? When not too long ago I remember when Jaime flipped my world. The last image of Jade played itself in my head, her beautiful brown locks of hair lay softly aganst my white pillow, her bright green eyes shined up at me as she tried to hold back her tears as I put on my combat boots.

***Flashback***

"I hate how you have to leave." Jamie whispered in the night air, nothing but the soft glow of the bedside light lit up the room.

"I hate how I have to leave you baby." I let go of the laces in my hands to leaned over to kiss her forehead, her eyes closed in apperciation. I looked over at the clock that seemed to be mocking me with so little time left.

"I love you." I stated as I moved some hair behind her hair, without opening her eyes she smiled the same smile that I crave, the smile I yearn for when i'm away, the smile that allows me to block out the gunshots at night.

"I love you more." Her eyes shined with the words and I felt my own smile spread across my face, in this moment I have never felt so content with life, I've never wanted so badly to lay under the covers with her and hold her close, to feel her breathe and her heart beat with mine.

"Not possible, I remember when I first saw you. I knew then and there that you would be someone important in my life." I saw her eyes play the memory in her head as well.

"I remember first seeing you too, I was like who is this creep staring at me." She laughed, and I couldn't help but laugh either with the sweet sound of hers.

"I know your face kind of scrunched up, you looked like a pug." I winked at her as I laid on the bed, laughing at her shocked face as she grabbed the pillow and hit me with it.

"I did not. Her face scrunched up while she spoke the words.

"See your face is scrunched up like a pug now, I wasn't laughing!"

She couldn't help but laugh at that point and shake her head.

"When do you leave again?" She teased as she leaned down and pressed her soft lips to mine. I smiled into the kiss, soaking up this blissful moment of peace.

The alarm clock chanted its mocking tune as it went off, it was time for me to go back to my reality. I felt her sigh next to me as she braced herself for another goodbye, tears welled in her eyes as I watched her try and blink them away before I noticed, but yet I did because I notice everything about her.

"Hey look at me." I nudged her face up to meet mine as she attempted a fake smile. That was the thing with her though, she was so beautiful that even her fake smiles seemed to take my breathe away.

"I'll be back soon, it will go by fast baby."

"I just don't like when you leave, it's selfish I know but I hate to share you." She laughed a bit and I did too.

The car beeped outside for me, letting us both know my ride was here. In that moment we both hated them, for making this cut short.

"I love you more." I whispered against her lips as I felt a tear come down her cheek.

"Not possible." She whispered back.

The second honk outside came and I reluctantly pulled away. I turned around and took one last look of my gorgeous girl before jogging out to meet my friends.

* * * * *

Six months late seemed to go by fast enough.

"Good luck man, hopefully she will be really surprised when you get there. Don't forget to get her flowers too." Josh pats me on the back as I get in the car and prepare to surprise Jaime of my earlier arrival.

"Thanks bro, i'll call when I get there." I started up the car, the engine roaring to life as the anxious side of me sped with the speedometer. I stopped by the flower shop and picked her up two dozen roses. I couldnt wait until I got to see her glowing smile, and feel her legs wrap around me as her excitement took over. I found myself speeding to get to her quickly, but finally I was home.

I grabbed the flowers and unlocked the door.

"Babe, i'm home!" I yelled out letting the excitement take over my voice. With no response I started searching for her.

"Jamie?" I called again, as I opened our bedroom door.

The next thing I know, the breathe was knocked out of me as the flowers fell out of my hands and hit the ground. Laying in OUR bed was some other guy making love with who I thought was my girl.

"Jay, I- I'm sorry- I" Tears streamed down her eyes as I took the image in front of me in, I felt sick and the need to pass out as my breathe came in short shallow waves. Tears flowed out of my eyes like a broken faucet as I felt my heart shatter and my world stop. I looked up again to find her disgusting face, and some guy I didn't know next to her. Anger took over me as I flew off the door and over to the guy laying beside her. I threw him off the bed and slammed him against the wall hearing it crack under the pressure, he struggled to breathe at the impact which only made me continue. Blow after blow I hit him in the face and everywhere I could.

"Jay Stop!" Jaime screamed, I dropped the guy on the floor no longing caring about anything. I turned around and looked her in the eyes, she looked shattered. 

Yet she will never know how much she changed me after that day, i've never been the same me since. Just a differnt definition of who I use to be.

*** End of Flashack***

How could I do this to Shaylee when what she fed me was real love and not some disfigured image of it? I have to make this right, no matter what I have to do.

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Hey guys, sorry for not posting in awhile, getting back into the swing of school kicked my butt, and i've been sorting things out in my personal life as well. I also know that not much happened in the last chapter so i'm sorry about that. I hope this chapter is better. Anway I hope all of you are still doing well and are also still reading! :) I didn't proff read this so i'm sorry for mistakes and it's not the best chapter but i'm getting back in the swing of writing. I've missed it! I'm on break now so regular updates again! :)

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