As I sat in first period, right behind Grayson, I couldn't stop thinking of him grabbing my face and kissing me. I couldn't stop thinking about him in general. What really ruined everything is what he wants from me.
Grayson: sorry about that.
Me: I was a bitch I should be sorry.
Grayson: but I kissed you when you didn't want to.
Me: It was just all sudden. I wasn't ready for anything to happen whatsoever.
Grayson: so you're saying you were going to wait for me?
Me: no..
Me: I just wasn't like ready for kissing or anything.. idk how to explain.
Grayson: well try.
Me: It's complicated.
Grayson: I guess.
I didn't reply back to him. My phone vibrates once again as I see the weirdest yet unexpected text.
Grayson: I should have never asked you for videos.
Grayson: ever.
Me: I know.
Grayson: can we start over? I just want to have a clean "restart" with you.
Me: I can't just forget about it..
Grayson: I know but
Grayson: just give me another chance.
Me: how am I supposed to be friends with someone who has seen me naked on their phone. That would be too awkward to even look at you.
Me: I don't even know how I have the balls to fucken text you.
Grayson: bc I'm fun to talk to ;)
Me: not the right time to send a winky face!
Grayson: I'm just trying to enlighten the mood..
Me: after what you asked for last night??
Me: I think tf not
Grayson: chilll teresaa
Me: I am not!
Grayson: oh c'mon it's not like I'm going to "expose" you
Me: umm you were or are going to if I don't send you videos of me!?
Grayson: tbh your body is just soo beautiful to stare at
Me: honestly fuck you.
Grayson: sure what time?
Me: bye you fucken dickhead!
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sorry about not updating I've been busy with school :(
but aye this book has come pretty far and thank youu to all of you. especially to @depresshun !
anyways i love yall :)
