All I ever thought was that,
I could never measure up,
Not even the smallest thing,
Tear everything I have down,
Wonder how the glass of the tank hasn't shattered,
And the flowers have dried up.
I always told people it was my fault,
And every day I kick myself in the knees,
Curl up in the dark,
Knowing I keep breaking it all down.
Bang bang bang,
I knock on the walls on the inside,
And watch them fall one by one,
I am slowly dying,
Destroying what's become of me,
I keep wanting shelter,
But can't put down the hammer.
Choke on the tears once more,
And wonder why,
I can't put it down,
Beg myself to at least leave something of me,
And I thought it was really lovely,
Those moments I feel didn't feel alone,
Don't you understand,
My head is panicking,
And my heart is worrying,
Myself isn't doing a thing besides destroying itself,
Could you let me go,
Just to kill myself off,
And wonder what ever happened,
To a bright young man,
Smothered in all the pain,
The only option it seems is to tear himself down,
It probably won't be long you'll be burying him in the ground,
If I keep letting myself down.
-Joshua Banks JJAJ
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When Sanity is Lost
PoetryAnd I just couldn't stop, before I knew it I was picking the pen up again. My second book in process this is soon to begin editing once my last one is done. As always hope you enjoy and find my insta @these.are.true.feelings
