I know I'm quiet,
The essence of me still crashes into me like waves,
Never really loved the idea but the hope,
And I get so down,
Feeling like everything I know,
It almost a year and I'm wondering if the time will keep speeding,
And I still remember what you said,
"You finally said it back"
So timid to love you,
But I mean it back,
Rockingly mentally unstable,
Always seemed to like boats,
And maybe now my boat doesn't sink so low,
Don't you understand,
Mentally I've always been sailing oceans,
The turning tides change so quickly,
But the sight of you in the mists of storms,
My grandmother even told me,
"You don't like saying it back do you?"
Such timid love comes away with so patience,
That I'm oh so tempted to say it back,
Forget the waiting and just move on,
For some reason,
Is that the waves getting lighter,
And as I get closer,
I sigh remembering my ship,
Wonder how ever could I impress,
The reoccurring news,
Afraid to admit that I've always been this way,
Out at sea for days,
A timid shade of blue,
Just a little scared of the pleasures of land,
Until the vibrant colors they show,
And the want to forget about being timid,
I've always wanted to sail far away,
Some how prone to loving land from afar,
In fears of my own heart.
The beat quickens at the thought of you,
And I wonder how much longer I'll stay looking through the eyeglass,
A careful bird's eye view,
All perhaps because,
Of internally critical rats that like to chew.
-Joshua Banks JJAJ
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When Sanity is Lost
PoetryAnd I just couldn't stop, before I knew it I was picking the pen up again. My second book in process this is soon to begin editing once my last one is done. As always hope you enjoy and find my insta @these.are.true.feelings
