(JJ's POV)
It's been three days and Francesca still hasn't woken up yet. I'm not losing hope but the words „if she wakes up" said by that doctor keep replying in my mind. I barely slept since she's in the hospital. I feel like I'm in some kind of a movie. Everything is just so fuzzy.
I couldn't go visit her today because I had to go to work and when I was done the visiting hours were over. Emily wanted to come over this evening. I was just taking a shower when I heard knocking. I yelled for her to come in and got dressed quickly.
„Hey," I said sitting on the couch and patting a spot next to me.
She just gave me a small smile and sat down. I gave her a glass of wine and played a movie. There were no words said because they didn't need to be. Until I screwed everything up when the movie ended.
„I talked to Amelia today," Emily told me, „she said it's not uncommon for her to still be in a coma, but if she stays that way she'll start thinking about other measures."
„What measures?" I wondered.
„Surgery. She told me the details but I can't for the life of me repeat that to you. She's hopeful though so that's good," my friend said.
And I kissed her. I grabbed her face in my hands and kissed her. Immediately, she pulled away. I looked at her and she stood up.
She looked at me for a few seconds before saying, „Go to the hospital. Go to the hospital to Francesca and we will pretend like this never happened."
With that she left and I kept looking at the door for a while. When I realized what I had done I felt disgusted. My girlfriend was lying in the hospital and I go kissing her friend. What the hell is wrong with me?
I got up and looked at our pictures on the walls of our home. I'm about to lose it all when she finds out. Emily said not to tell her but I don't know if I can do that. I don't know if I want to.
I called Penelope to ask if she could come over for a while to watch the kids. She agreed. After that was taken care of I drove to the hospital. It was a good while after midnight so of course they wouldn't let me in. I used my badge, I know I'm not supposed to do that but at this point, who cares?
I walked in her room and sat on the chair. I couldn't bring myself to even hold her hand, thinking about how I just betrayed her not even an hour ago. Would she forgive me? How can I explain to her why I did it if I don't even know?
I knew I needed to be there for her now so I got over myself and took her hand in mine. I thought for a minute before I started talking.
„Uh, I don't know if you can hear me, but I really need you to wake up Fran. I've never felt anything like this you know? With anyone. Uh," I started.
„It's just so hard, you know? I never knew I could fall so hard but I did and the thought that I might not get you back is killing me. I know you um, I know it's probably taking a lot in you to fight. I know it probably hurts a lot and it's taking everything, but you never give up. Please don't start now. You better be fighting, not just for me but for you. I don't wanna sound selfish but you can't do this to me Fran, you have to wake up," I continued.
„So um, if there's any way that you can hear me right now, give me something. Please. You're perfect, perfect for me and just perfect in general. I couldn't imagine a better woman to call mine if I wanted to. I love you. So I swear if you wake up I'm gonna be the best girlfriend this damn world has ever seen," I told her and waited for a few second before getting up.
When I got to the door something caught my attention.
(Your POV)
„I'm gonna be the best girlfriend this damn world has ever seen," I heard JJ say.
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