Fallen For You

Chapter Fifty Three

'Ughhhh not again' I run to my bathroom and start throwing up in the toilet. I hate this it proper hurt me, and nine times out of ten it's stomach acid I honestly have nothing in my stomach to bring back up. Now I've throw up on and off for like ten minutes, I haven't made it back to my bed, I've just been laying on the bathroom floor, I figured I would stay here until I can finally crawl back to my bed. It's been a week since Joel went, and I actually don't miss him sounds awful I know, but he was honest and straight up with me. To be honest I think my mind, actually I know my mind has been else where and not thinking of Joel. I have a slight problem, I've been throwing up every morning like this for the past five days, well morning if I am being honest. At first I thought it was a bug or I've eaten something bad and got food poisoning, but now I honestly think it's something more, because who on earth is like this five mornings in a row and feels ruff for the rest of the day. I lay back on the floor, and look up at the ceiling, tears start falling from my eyes. I kinda know what this mean, but I am I kinda not wanting to admit it to myself let alone anyone else at the moment. Am i pregnant with Joel's child? I always thought we used something every time we had sex, I honestly thought we did. I wipe my tears and my promise ring catches my attention, even after two months since Will left I never took it off, even when I was with Joel it stayed on my finger. I am guessing now this will be the end of me and Will, he won't want me if I am pregnant with another guys child, I mean which guy would want to take on someone else child. This will break his heart, though sometimes I do wonder if he misses me at all or if it is just me missing him, he's living out his dream, I mean it wouldn't be long til he's all signed up and gone again. Yes I moved on, but that was more a rebound more than love, sorry Joel that sounds bad but that's how I feel now. Joel helped me take my mind off of Will and I did grow to love him.