Never Ending Thoughts Of Him

Poem#8: Expecting the Unexpected

Chills running down my spine
Visions which I long to forget
Thoughts which I wished weren't mine
Despite of the pain I seemingly get

Oh how could I forget?
That smile that filled my days with joy
Perfume that mark your personality
Careful gestures that seem to annoy

Little by little 
I became blinded to the truth
My heart is slowly becoming brittle
So brittle that he can easily break me into pieces

How can I fix my broken self?
How can I tell you what I really feel?
Tell me how, how can I regain myself?
Tell me, is this real?

I should've prepared for this
But how can you prepare for the unexpected?
I'm hopelessly, undeniably, knew that I would miss
I should have listen to what my consciousness said

Expecting the unexpected
Thoughts running through my head
Saying, it is really impossible to do
Yet, it was already been said

"I fell for you"
Those words which revealed the truth
Words that I always wanted to tell you
"You are worth the pain I went through"