Never Ending Thoughts Of Him

Poem#27: Epiphany

Across these busy corridors is a smile
Flashed in his face, the man I loved before
If time could just stop for a while
I couldn't stay, but I saw you at the door

Wondered, you were the first person I see
Voices became vague, I can't concentrate
The mere presence of you hinders me
I knew that I can't bring back before, it's too late

So weird, I thought I really loved you
But I can't bear with the storm in my heart
The days were painted in a faded hue
The promise I made, separated us apart

Before, I adapted to you with everything
I revealed myself behind the smiling mask
Not so beautiful, ready to risk anything
This is the real me, ready with whatever you'll ask

Now I realized, I should love myself
I can't love you, if I can't appreciate me
Though I'm not perfect, I am enough
I'll never pretend, once trapped in a show is now free

Perhaps I am not like the others, I'm dull
Perhaps people won't see my shy sparkle
I'm ready to face you now, even if I'll fall
Just like the sun, I am a star, surrounded with darkness, still twinkles