The Pain is all worth it.

Day #20

I am patient. I am in control of my thoughts and emotions.

No. Kidding aside, I am struggling to do so. But I am trying. And I guess that if I am then it is true.

Starting out feeling bitter, hubby got some negative thoughts about his brother who blah blah blah. I tried to stop myself from freaking out again.

We are going to rearrange our room so I went out while he does the job. Lol. Hahaha. But he said it was for the best. So, okay. I went out at the sala and watched animes.

12 noon, I realised that we were supposed to meet a friend 🤦‍♀️. Well, they cancelled though so..... We finished our room by 4pm and got ourselves ready to go out for business meeting.

Positive news are coming.
Yet my emotions are pushing them.
I couldn't help feeling annoyed.

Breathe.
I told myself again and again.

With other people, I am such an angel. Now, with my hubby, I am such an assss. 😅

Why? I don't really know.

So I prayed again.

30,000php just came in to my wallet. I dont want to be greedy I want to let go of that attitude. I need the Lord the most during these times.