The Pain is all worth it.

Day #38

I am love by God.

I know I am because He always provides my needs. He gives me more than enough.

I am struggling with being contented. I want more. And wanting more is not good. I am in a battle of wanting more and letting go.

The Lord's plans are great. I am trying to fast forward everything. And because of that I am struggling. All I see is the hard part. Until when is this pain?

But God is whispering that my fight is won. He is setting me free. He is making me happy every day. I should enjoy the journey.

I dont know if I am worthy of God's love. I am a sinner. I couldn't do things right. But God is still good. He still accepts me. My fear is His rejection. But I know the God sees my heart.

Why am I still writing here? I could do it in a journal but I guess it is because I know I am not the only one.

No one is reading this now but one day people will. Especially the broken ones. I hope I can reach you guys.

Let's hold on together.