That whole time, from the kiss onward, felt amazing... I didn't get it... it was as if everything was somehow fixed, I knew it couldn't be but I still kept that mentality.
I saw some kind of slideshow unfold in my mind... It was like those girly cliché movies, where I saw... Us.
Just us.
I saw Gerard like I was a camera.
I saw him laughing. I saw him grinning. I saw him crying, with joy and sadness. I saw him dancing like he was some old emo dad. I saw him dancing like he was a mix of a stripper, Beyoncé, Brittany Spears and like Kesha or something. I saw him in a cute way. I saw him in a funny way. I saw him in a way that was a little less innocent. I saw him sleeping and I saw him waking up.
I saw us together.
I saw him kiss my cheek or grab my arm. I saw him rest his head on my shoulder. I saw myself resting my head on his. I saw myself jumping on him to kiss him. I saw myself asking him if he was okay. I saw him asking me the same thing. I saw us lying in the grass. I saw us holding hands. I saw my arm around him. I saw his arm around a drunk me, leading me home. I saw us fighting. I saw us making up.
I even saw myself.
I saw myself crying, laughing, dancing like a really embarrassing dad would. I saw myself in the overdone teenage vision where Gerard' be driving and I'd be sticking out of the car, smiling and laughing, just, free. I saw myself smiling. I saw myself grinning. I saw myself happy. I saw myself coughing. I saw myself being stubborn as Gerard tried to get a thermometer into my fucking mouth and I was loving it.
What I didn't expect was that when I woke up, it didn't go away and it wasn't a dream, not a drunken vision, it was an experience. Not the slideshow but I remembered that too, I'm talking about everything else. What really didn't go away though was the feeling. When I looked to Gerard sleeping I grinned, rolled over and pulled him into my arms from behind, kissing his cheek because I wanted that with Gerard. I wanted the slideshow to be real because fuck, this world is so fucking ugly, but he's beautiful to me. This feels right. This feels perfect. But life ruins perfection. I have to protect this little piece and keep it for as long as I can because I needed it. I always will.
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Whispers in the dark (Frerard)
FanfictionFrank is an angsty asshole, at least that's what he lets on to be, When Gerard becomes his roommate he can't tell if he's happy or not. Don't speak. Don't touch my stuff. Without permission of course. Those were some of Franks rules for the qu...