Synthesis of Scattered Pieces ✔️

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Wiping the tears she looked straight in the mirror. Today she needed to decide whether he was worth to flow these tears or not?

Does she love him more than her self-respect? She asked herself while seeing the mobile screen which was showing his number, just this question was stopping her from dialing it.

No Shifa, not anymore! What's the point of making efforts in a relationship where you're all alone? You're not a replacement! You have an identity, you're not dependent on him! You can't beg for his love of he doesn't care about you! You can't be weak! Telling the on the other side of the mirror she took a deep breath!

"Mr Daniyal Kazmi, today, Shifa Anwar is closing your chapter from her life. I can't ruin my life if you don't know my value!" She told herself with determination and took a deep breath. Washing her face she smiled, it wasn't easy but this girl knew how to do difficult tasks.

"Mumma, today I'll make dinner, you just take rest. Enough of my laziness." Folding her sleeves to half Shifa walked into her parents room, Maryam was chopping vegetables sitting on the couch and Anwar was lying down on the bed. They both looked at each other and Maryam smiled sadly while opening her one arm. Shifa silently sat down beside her and rested her head on Maryam's chest.

"I'll do everything, you take rest." Maryam kissed Shifa's cheek and patted her head. "Hmm, and tell me what do you want to have in lunch tomorrow? I'll bring everything required for that." Anwar added and Shifa gave a sad look to both of them.

"Papa mummy, please! I don't need your sympathy. Please let me live strongly! I need your support not sympathy." Anwar stayed silent but Maryam cried silently and left the room.

"Papa." She walked towards the bed and sat down in front of Anwar who nodded without uttering a word. "Can I trust you?" She asked and Anwar kept seeing her for next few moments then shook his head. "Don't trust me," he sighed. "Just trust your decisions."

"Do you trust me and my decisions?" Shifa asked and Anwar one more time kept watching her for a long time then smiled like a question.

"Tumhe kya lagta hai Shifa?" He asked and Shifa shrugged, for the first time she was talking to Anwar, however, not making eye contact due to fear and hesitation.

(What do you feel, Shifa?)

"Umm... pta nhi lekin... Mujhe lagta hai aap mujh par bharosa nhi karte."

(I don't know but I feel that you don't trust me.)

"Tumhe aesa kyu lagta hai?"

(Why do you think so?)

"You never let me go for outings from college or school, you never let me live freely, you have been controlling my every action... Isn't it enough to support my opinion?" Anwar sighed while sitting up on the bed and switch off the TV which was showing a news debate till now.

"Tum par bharosa tha isi liye mene tumhe co-ed school aur college mein parhaya. Ye jaante huye bhi ki tum mujhse jhut bol kar Radio mein kaam kar rahi ho, mene tumhe kabhi nhi rooka. College farewell party mein jo kuch hua tumne mujhe aaj tak nhi bataya, tum behosh thi, Daniyal ne tumhe Maham ke ghar pohchaya, baad mein usne principal se kaha ki wo tumhara fiance hai, lekin mene tumhe college jaane se nhi rooka." Shifa was looking at Anwar in disbelief, he knew about the farewell party? How? Then she remembered that Anwar was angry with his friend who is assistant professor in Shifa's college, and today she understood the reason. Before she comes out of this shock Anwar continues... "Aur sabse badi baat... Ye jaante huye bhi ki tumhare aur Faraz ke dil mein kya tha, main sukun ki neend soota tha kyuki mujhe tum par bharosa tha ki tum koi galat qadam nhi uthaogi... Aur kitna bharosa karu main tum pr?" Shifa's breath stuck in her chest, she literally forgot to take the next breath, Anwar knew about her crush on Faraz?