Benefits

Ch. 19: Do I Wanna Know

Do I Wanna Know- Arctic Monkeys

"Cause there's this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow, and I play it on repeat."

Mini A/N: SORRY I FORGET TO PUT ON CHAPTER 16 THAT CHAPTER 18 IS ALSO ON PRIVATE... 😏🍆💦... so yeah ya have to follow me to read that chapter... cleaner version will come out later... okay continue reading.

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Jake Dennings P.O.V.

Idiot idiot idiot! Why did I kiss her on the forehead like a fucking idiot? It felt foreign, yet so automatic when I pressed my lips on her forehead.

I was driving home instead of practice. I practiced before I got to her house. I just said that so I get the hell away from her.

I can't stand the familiar feeling stir inside me when I'm near her. It was a chaotic feel mixing together.

My hands tighten around the wheel of my car to steady my thoughts. Why did this girl make me feel this way?

You know when you fuck a girl, and it's just the adrenaline rush that takes over? Well once the highs done, you're done with that blunt slash fuck, and on to the next one. The difference was Dawn was a blunt that I would like to take a puff out of every day.

I shake my head vigorously; it's lust. Just lust. It can't be anything more than desire.

I pull up to my shared apartment with my brother; we live on the bottom floor of our complex. Which was fine by me because I did not want my neighbors to complain about the screaming in that house more then we do now.

My brother... He has extra fun you could say. I didn't bring girls home, but only two have been to my house. One is my ex-girlfriend, and the other being Kelsey. Although that was when I was out cold from a fight that previous night and stupid Casper blathered his mouth about my address, she came to my house with a long coat with no clothes underneath it. I would have cussed her out and told her to leave, maybe even have a little fun with her before she went, but I was injured.

She left crying that day, saying I had no feelings or something just because I was ignoring her while I was wrapped in my bed, which was complete bullshit. I had feelings, only not for her or anyone else for that matter.

Walking into my house felt like Death Valley. It was either really hot or freezing. Right now it was hot as hell, and I found myself stripping my flannel, and my shirt off.

"Yeah! Yeah, fuck keep going! Don't stop!" Of course my brother's fucking. When doesn't he? I went to my bedroom, shutting the door hard against the house. I hated it when he would do shît like this. Why couldn't he be like me, and not bring girls home period? Just fuck them at their house. I can at least relax with peace.

My brother claims that he's too lazy to leave the house.

I took off my sunglasses and entered my grey room. It wasn't pitch dark like how it usually was; the moon peeked through the blinds.

I looked at my untouched bed. A bed that I lay on for an hour to do nothing. Not to fuck, not even sleeping.

I sat on my bed contemplating what I should do for the rest of the night until my phone goes off.