ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ʏᴏᴜ [𝓒𝓸𝓶𝓹𝓵𝓮𝓽𝓮𝓭✔]

Chapter 59: "Just like me, huh?"

-AMANDA-

What should I do?!

Oh, dammit!

WHY DID I WRITE BACK?!

WHAT'S UP WITH HIM!?

DID HAVE HIS PHONE IN HIS HANDS THE WHOLE TIME?!

I stare at my display one last time and realise, that it's really happening.

-Raven-

He's seriously calling me!!!

I clear my throat and try to calm my trembling body. -Why am I so nervous?!-

"Hello? "

I take a deep breath. "Hi."

"Thank you for responding. I thought, you would ignore me." I may not see him, but his voice already tells me that the concern has been giving him anxiety lately.

I feel so bad...

"I wouldn't. I still want to have contact with you." I honestly admit. My heart starts pounding rapidly again.

I look up from the floor to my mirror and spot myself blushing. -Thank God, he isn't here seeing this.-

My left ear gets blessed by his soft chuckle form the other end. Again, I have a feeling that I might faint of heart attack. " Seems like God heard my prayers." -Wait what?!-

"I.. uhhh-"

"You wanted to talk to me, right?" He cuts me off.

OH! I am so stupid!

"Yeah..."

"I'm listening."

Should I tell him the truth?

Through phone?

Wouldn't I be breaking Blake's promise?

But Raven deserves an explanation, right?

What should I do?...

"Raven?"

"Yeah?"

-Impressive. He's still on. Normally Guys, Nath for example, would interrupt my thoughts or hang up. But Raven, he gave me time...-

I gulp, noticing how dry my throat became after a long while thinking. "Can we meet up instead? I mean, if that's okay with you. If you can't, that's fine too. How about-"

"No! No, today's good. I've been meaning to ask you the same thing." He responds.

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Here I am. Sitting opposite the person I cause trouble and anxiety attack.
We decided to meet up in Starbucks. -I know, it sounds like we're rich and can afford Coffee all the time, but that's not the case. It's just the place where we all used to hang out. It became our place.-

Raven changed a lot. It's been only 2 weeks, I haven't seen him nor had contact. His thick muscle strings are clearly much more visible than it was before. It looks like he's built out of steel.

His dark hair, which used to be covering his eyes, are trimmed and upturned. His face looks normal as always, very unrealistic handsome. -I mean, how can a human being be this beautiful?!-

He looks so peaceful and aesthetic by only sipping onto his drink, looking outside the window...

Oh shoot! I'm staring too much!!!