dreamer//h.s

04//you're my best friend

Welcome back to dreamer!!  This chapter is an important one to the plot. Enjoy, the next one will be out later this afternoon.

TW: there are mentions of bullying along with disabilities. please don't read if those topics are sensitive to you. I am writing from personal experience. 

Ila James

March 25, 2021
Hamburg, Germany

"HARRY! Stop it, I am trying to edit this one last picture from last night. Please?" I say through laughing, struggling to breathe because he won't stop tickling me. "Ila, I am boredddd" Harry dragging out the word dramatically. "Fine I am done anyway" slamming my laptop shut. Harry jumps up from the couch screaming in victory, "YESSSSS" Slapping my hand on my face and shaking my head laughing at him.

"Tag your it!" I slap Harry's arm running out of the greenroom and down the hall as fast as I can. "Ila your playing a dangerous game love" Harry yells after me and starts running. Finding my way to the main part of the venue running as fast as I can. Venue staff pissed at me but I don't care at this point. Thinking I lost him, he grabs me by my waist and picks me up, throwing me over my shoulder carrying me back to the greenroom. "Looks like I caught a wild Ila James in her habitat" Laughing so hard, "Harry put me down please."

"No can do sweet girl, I am afraid I will miss you too much." Sighing, "Harry put me down or no ice cream tomorrow." Yelping because I am thrown onto the couch. "Fine, can we nap though?" Nodding, we both cuddle into each other and drift off to sleep.

I woke up maybe an hour after we fell asleep. At this point it is normal for us at this point to nap at every venue we are at. Since it can be very boring at points since we are basically here all day long depending on what we have to do.

I never wake up before him so I use this time to just admire what is next to me. I also think about how I got so lucky to have a friend like Harry. We have gotten so close since Switzerland. The only time we aren't together is when we are sleeping or if I am getting ready and talking to someone at home. Harry gives me that privacy and I appreciate it because if not he would know how obsessed I am with him.

If Crimson didn't have the title of best friend Harry would. I mean I have never felt this close to someone this quickly either. I don't know if it's because of the circumstances or if my mind wants me to be this close to him. I think it's the latter.

Harry doesn't know much about my family or friends. Not even my childhood. I mean I don't know much about him other than what he's told the world. Do I want him to know? Hell yeah I do. But am I afraid? Yes. Harry is so special and I am so glad I am his friend. I just don't want to scare him away. Nothing bad has happened to me that would make me never want to tell him, but I am afraid that if I let him into my mind then he will run away. That's what happens when for most of your life you are alone. Crimson or Blair don't know much about it and I've known them for 4 years.

I do think that Harry would listen and offer to be there for me. I don't think he would ever throw it in my face. I don't think he is a judgmental person at all. But, when you have something, a secret, like I do, it can be scary to admit it...

Harry starts to stir in my grip and I just smile at how peaceful he looks. "Good morning H." Harry was kind of shocked to see I was up before him, "You are awake before me. How long?" Shaking my head, "Not long, maybe like 5 minutes." Harry smiled slightly, "You are my favorite nap buddy." Shocked, pretending I am hurt, "I thought I was your only nap buddy?"

"Nope," still shocked, Harry giggling. "I'm kidding, you are my favorite and only nap buddy." Giggling, "good. You are my only nap buddy too H and my favorite."