ACHES [Wattys Winner 2015]

When my soul looked back!

May be that he's gone and I keep crying all nights, but tonight I woke up with a zest in me.

It is different, some other dream probably tripping over my whole personality.

Energy filling me even when I am left without love.

The eyes gleaming with light of hope to live, not of the sour tear.

It seems a different life; I was living somehow, or may be dying more every moment, 

Tonight seems free and lovely. Have been amazed by me, so not in me tonight.

Flying, air not caressing my wounds hurting it thus, 

The absence of reason in me to hurt myself. 

The horrid attire of loneliness, when he had gone, has left me now.

All I want is to live for self, 

For my love to my own self.

I want to live, breathe the air, bask in a day's sun 

And bathe with the moonlight. 

I want to fly, hurt my wings yet stand again to fall. 

At least, it will be a physical pain, not my heart unleashed to self obliteration.

I want to taste the flavour of life with variety of colours and gamut of emotions, 

Not just love or pain.

He has gone and I want him no more. 

Though till yesterday, I craved for him. 

I yearned him back. 

But all he could do was give me more of ire 

And convinced me through his harsh words, 

Not to live.

I wanted to kill myself more every day.

But today, what changed? 

Lure life in, to get the craze, the fun of living. 

I yearn to dance in rain and touch water with feet running, 

Getting to know the free conscience.

Only when it could see everything with life, full of life, 

My soul turned back, to see my body left all alone, 

Abandoning all, the love for me and once had in me, MY LIFE. 

Only when it thought it can enjoy life 

And understood the happiness life brings with it, 

My soul was set free off my body!