ACHES [Wattys Winner 2015]

Aches

It is usual,

The pain persists,

I warm myself with a sunshine smile,

'Cause I know despite of all this physical pain,

I will be happy,

Since, I have you.

Trailing in the chores,

Of career and people,

I feel lost,

'Cause I am pulled back by my constraints,

But, I will be fine,

I have you.

Sometimes, I can't take it more,

But I never look for a cliff or find other ways,

I am blocked with the bulwark,

But not quite given up,

'Cause I still have you.

Or that is what I told myself,

Till today.

When you packed your bags,

And you left.

I have had pain,

Serious pain,

Insufferable pain,

When I can't support myself,

Can't walk myself,

Can't move.

But this?

You leaving.

It is more paralysing.

It is not just ache,

Not just a heart ache.

It is death.

Of the hope,

I tried living with.

Of the happiness,

I tried living for.

Of the painful life,

I tried living.