Mr. Sadistic

23 || Letter

I push open my door, grabbing files from the bottom draw of my desk before taking them back to the meeting room.

I push other opened folders and scatter papers out of the way. Clearing a space for my new folders

I lined them out strategically across the tabletop and picked up my drink for earlier tonight, taking a sip as my eyes traced along the codes once more. 

I sighed sitting back down with my fingers combing through my hair. This was stressing me out and I hated having to wait for new codes. I'd been through every file and every paper over the past 3 weeks and yet nothing was bringing me ease. 

I pulled the letter I received today from my pocket and unfolded it once again with a pounding in my heart. 

「Cäcilia Monika Füehrer. 

It appears you have changed your number dear sister. I can't seem to reach you despite my many calls. 

I hope you are doing well and thriving in life. Our birthday is soon the big two five. I can't help but think of you each year this comes around because we shared it for many years of our life. 

We are older and wiser. I wish wiser to apply to me for you have always been intelligent whereas I have made bad decisions in my past. I do hope to repair my mistakes with the present and that starts with you. 

Cäcilia my sister. Your name has not left my tongue for many years and saying it once more it saddens me greatly, but I know I can fix this. 

I am not asking for your forgiveness; I am requesting a fraction of your time. 

You are the only family I have managed to contact apart from our father who is doing fine if you were wondering. I'm sorry we fell apart; it is my fault that we drifted. 

I noticed you stopped sending me happy birthday messages on our 20th. Cäcilia, I wonder often where you are? what you do? what you have achieved? 

Have you made those dreams of yours true? the ones we discussed as little kids. I am filled with the deepest regret to of let the wedge of my selfishness come between us. 

it is coming up June and I have big things heading my way. I write to you because, if something is to ever happen you will know that I have not forgotten you.

I went back to our old home in Liechtenstein, but no one resides there. I guess I found myself craving familiarity and nostalgia instead I was greeting with an overwhelming home sickness and a painful loss.  

However, our lives remained in stillness. The wallpaper has not torn, nor the beds unmade. Upon my exploring of our old house, I found our bracelets that you made us when you were little and took them.

Yours is in the envelope.

It was my choice to leave and I'm not saying I regret it in the slightest. I am saying that I do regret the fact we drifted apart. 

I wish to see you on our birthday. Maybe we can chat? I am not sure if this letter will get to you or not. if you could write back. 

we could catch up. Just brother and sister. Cäcilia, I haven't had word from you nor heard if you are doing okay. 

I worry for your safety and health. 

me and father have life changing plans ahead of us, I hope you will accept my proposal for a catch up. 

Matteo Johannes Füehrer.」

What confused me most was the timing of the letter out of everything that has been happening right now his sudden need to reconnect has be suspicious of his true intentions.