Sin (BoyxBoy) ✔️ Book 1

Chapter 37

Luke

My whole body ached.

Gabriel woke me up with butterfly kisses lingering along my face and my lips, all the way down to my jaw. They weren't lustful kisses like last night- they were more full of love and compassion.

''Good morning, sleepyhead. Do you feel okay?'' Gabriel asked me. I finally pulled my eyes open, the sight of Gabriel leaving a smile on my lips. His hair was laying messily on top of his head in a bun, long strains loosely falling out from it. I couldn't help but flush at the realization that he was naked... but so was I.

I tried to pull myself up from the bed, a whimper of pain escaping my lips as I tried to do so. Gabriel's smile left his lips as I cringed from the pain, gazing over at me with a guilty look in his eyes. He suddenly sat up in the bed, taking his hands and pulling me easily next to him. I laid my head down on his chest as I pulled the blanket over both of us once more, a deep sigh escaping his lips before he began to speak once more.

''I'm sorry, Luke. I should have been more gentle.'' He admitted. I couldn't help but laugh as I gazed up at his guilty eyes, his dark brown eyes staring back at mine.

''You're as guilty as me. I encouraged it.'' I said to him. I brought a kiss onto his cheek, a smile forming on his pierced once more before I began to speak again. ''You weren't that rough. I had a nice time.''

''Yeah... It sounded like it.''

It was my turn to feel guilty.

I broke away from his eyes, taking a deep breath as I crossed my arms against my bare chest. I'll admit, I did have a good time last night. I experienced a lot of new feelings that I've never felt before. I felt like I was going to burst out of my skin...

I said a lot of bad words I'm not too proud of. I said a lot of things to Gabriel that I wouldn't normally say. I guess... having sex with a man isn't something I'd do in the first place, but it's just not something I usually do. I know that I'm moving forward in life and trying all sorts of different new things, such as... sex.

I just don't like cursing that much. It makes me feel dirty.

...But I couldn't help myself. It came out of my mouth nonstop.

''Let me tell you something, okay?'' Gabriel started. He crossed his own arms across his chest, leaning his head against the headboard as he looked over to me.

''Sex is something that brings out something in all of us. It's something that can be used as a stress reliever, it could bring people closer together... some people use it for their own benefits. What you say or do during sex, doesn't decipher anything about you. It's okay that you were cursing a storm and getting into it. You're allowed to enjoy yourself. That's the whole point of sex.'' He explained to me. I couldn't help but flush at his words, nodding my head as I avoided his eyes.

''Some people don't take sex seriously. Some people in this world take advantage of the kindness of other people... and that's when it becomes apart of your personality. When you start taking that comfort away from it, that's when you become a dirty, filthy person. Consent is a big thing in sex, okay? You have to always ask the person if they want something.''

...Yeah. He's right.

''What happened last night is only between me and you. You can curse all you want, sweetheart. Nobody is listening.''

''Even God? Does he care?''

He began shaking his head no in my direction, his curls following his movements. I met his dark eyes once more, his pierced lips having an amused smile.